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[tearsincminor]

so in this life we have all learned that people you think you can trust will just turn around and screw you into the ground. 2004 was an awful year for me. i mean it had it's ups... but as you know those always come to an end... its sad saying goodbye to things that you loved... but you just have to look forward to the future. right now things are going really smoothly. i talked to someone that i hadn't in awhile and it was interesting i guess i could say... my how people change! and i went to see an old friend yesterday it was great. we hadn't hung out in a long time and it was good. and then last night was fun. i mean there were sooo many people there ahh! haha. but whatever. atleast i got to see 2 of the people that matter most to me at this point in time. erin has been out of town and i'm having withdrawals! but she comes home tomorrow! so i'm think that i'm just going to let loose and tell my mom what i haven't been telling her... but i know that i'll regret it becuase she's going to be mad. codys back!!! i've missed him soo much! i felt like i hadn't seen him in forever! i walked into work today and he was sitting right there and i was like cody!! and he just got up and gave me the biggest hug ever!! i was soo great.. he's like don't worry i'm not going to be leaving again for awhile! and i was just like yay! haha. but anyways. don't you love just remembering the good times and the bad of 2004? i mean to tell you the truth i don't really remember anything before june. hummm i've been trying though... oh yeah! cruise! haha that was fun too. but anyways... i'm watching what a girl wants... lmao.. oh and this girl knows what she wants! hahaha. but yeah. life is going better now... and i hope to leave alot of stress and bad shit behind with 2004... i just hope it doesn't follow me.. i just really really hope that its not going to follow me. so midnight sparked a new beginning to my life... i just hope that this new beginning won't be a reflection of past experiences!

" just let me be and let me go... you never had me to begin with "