Thoughts on love
Friday night I watched the movie Enchanted with a friend of mine. It kind of made me a little bit cynical. I'm beginning to think that being in love is all about staying within a range in which the other person will tolerate you. There were times when my depression was getting to me when I was 'too much' for Kevin to handle. Kevin's response was to say we weren't talking for a certain amount of time. However long he needed. Sometimes a week, sometimes just a weekend. So when I was needing someone, the someone I wanted wouldn't be there for me. I guess it started to happen too often. Basically I went past his boundaries of acceptable behavior too often and he didn't want to deal with it. Thats the main reason for the end of most of my relationships. So now I'm in therapy trying to work on myself so that I become an acceptable human being to date. So that I can stay within the range of acceptable behavior. Thats what love is all about, its not unconditional.