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well, ill just add another shity day to my shity month. ive managed to lose/anger/pissoff 3 friends today...big suprise, it seems lately the only thing i can do right is fuck-up shit. i dont know why im doing this, or why i cant seem to get out of this rut im in. it just keeps going in circles. i dont know what to do any more, i want to continue being friends with all of them but its so hard. one of them asks a lot of me and im having troubles giving it to him even though i want to. one, ive been trying to understand and help for a long time, but i pissed her off today by asking to many questions, and now she dont even asnwer my IM's. and the third has been getting himself into stupid shit for months now, and i finally broke down and told him to stop and that if he was really sorry for what he was doing then he woulda stopped a long time ago.
so ive managed to push away 3 friends in one day...and the worst part...its not their fault, its mine...im not a good enough friend, im not strong enough to help them, or to support them, or give them what they want and deserve.
im just not strong enough.
so ive managed to push away 3 friends in one day...and the worst part...its not their fault, its mine...im not a good enough friend, im not strong enough to help them, or to support them, or give them what they want and deserve.
im just not strong enough.