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Reality is mearly and illusion.
just when you think things are perfect... they shatter like a rock through a glass window. You try and pick up the pieces and put them back together, but it is never quite the same with all the cracks and the tiny pieces missing. But there is always hope... i guess. not to be on the dark side of things, but it is rather hard when things keeps going wrong. I dont even know what to do anymore. Maybe if i could go back a few months... i could make a few changes, be a different person... but then again, i cant see the big picture either. I dont know where these things are going to lead me. Like what i said a while ago, things happen for a reason and you never know what until it happens. It sucks a lot of the time tho to trust that everything will be okay... i mean i try to be a trusting person... i try not to be too skeptical cuz sometimes i get to be so untrusting that people give up on me, but it seems like when i finally do trust someone they break it and i have to start all over again. so i hope you see my frustration in trying to make my life work...
Okay i have one more problem... (stop reading if you are bored with my life and problems.... or you can skip right to the part where you give me advice :-D)i dont want to go to valley anymore (okay so that isnt a new problem, it has just "resurfaced" i guess. People keep telling me to deal with it... and its not that bad. But it is to me. I feel like i could be doing so much more, have more opportunities somewhere else. However i cant know for surbecause i have never gone anywhere else. Bleh and if i do leave and dont like it, senoir year is kinda a really hard year to keep switching schools... SOOO who knows, i guess we will just have to see.
just sit and stare as i walk away...
~SheLLy