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Have you ever felt like something was missing... that something isnt right. You sit and think and try to figure out what is wrong... you feel sad, lonely, empty... even though everyone around you says they love and support you. You feel like no one really knows how you are feeling, and when they ask you cant explain it cuz you dont even know what is really wrong. You feel frustrated and miss-understood.when you do try to explain... sometimes it comes out all wrong and it sounds petty and stupid, then you feel dumb and insignificant. People get mad at you cuz they think that you are ignoring them, or mad at them... but your not... you just dont feel like yourself. You try to fix it with false reality... but as usual reality smacks into you head on, without any saving warning. You feel out of place... you jsut want things simple again, and it cant which makes everything worse cuz then you are confused. Things change so fast and you finally seem to grasp what is going on just for it to change again. Its like when you are spinning in circles... you can focus on things for a little while but yo ueventually have to turn your head to see what is on the other side or your neck is going to snap. Maybe im thinking too hard... maybe it is dumb...
Song for today:
"This Time Imperfect"
I cannot leave here, I cannot stay
Forever haunted, more than afraid
Asphyxiate on words I would say
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue
There are no flowers, no not this time
There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these dark words I find
I'd show a smile but I'm too weak
I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me
I cannot stay here, I cannot leave
Just like all I loved, I'm make believe
Imagined heart, I disappear
Seems... no one will appear here and make me real