needing strength
Ok. SO I've made one decision in my life involving a person that has been a part of my life for some time now. I just need the strength to follow through. I don't know if I have it in me.
What do you do when so much of your being wants to be with the one person you shouldn't be with? I can't be weak now...but that is how I feel when it comes to him. When I see his name on my phone, I know it will take every bit of strength inside of me not to answer...but this is something I have to do.
He has been a bigger part of my life for a longer period of time than most of the people I hang out with now. He has heard the tears fall and dealt with me being pissed and he can bring a smile to my face just like that. I know some of my friends think I'm stupid when it comes to him. But he is the one who taught me to see myself as beautiful, when I saw no beauty anywhere.
Yet I am stuck ... he isn't healthy for me and I know that fact. I most move on, move away, just move in so many ways.
What do you do when so much of your being wants to be with the one person you shouldn't be with? I can't be weak now...but that is how I feel when it comes to him. When I see his name on my phone, I know it will take every bit of strength inside of me not to answer...but this is something I have to do.
He has been a bigger part of my life for a longer period of time than most of the people I hang out with now. He has heard the tears fall and dealt with me being pissed and he can bring a smile to my face just like that. I know some of my friends think I'm stupid when it comes to him. But he is the one who taught me to see myself as beautiful, when I saw no beauty anywhere.
Yet I am stuck ... he isn't healthy for me and I know that fact. I most move on, move away, just move in so many ways.