curse it
Ok, I'm on my lunch break at day camp. We have one group of kids already in school ... the group here today starts back on Wed. I can't wait! :) I miss having my early mornings alone. Today one of the kids brought almost 400 balloons with them...we've already gone through them all...I've never blown up so many balloons in my life.
Anyways, next week starts the process of getting everything in order. I have a lot of things to get done before Christmas...like a lot of doctor's appt's. But there are other things too...things that I may need help with. The person I was wanting to help me may not be available now. Well, it isn't that they aren't available ... they are more so now than before ... it is just that I don't think I can let them help me. My mental stability cannot take them...neither can my heart.
I don't know this time how to discern between two choices. It is consuming me and it feels like there is no one who would understand.
Anyways, next week starts the process of getting everything in order. I have a lot of things to get done before Christmas...like a lot of doctor's appt's. But there are other things too...things that I may need help with. The person I was wanting to help me may not be available now. Well, it isn't that they aren't available ... they are more so now than before ... it is just that I don't think I can let them help me. My mental stability cannot take them...neither can my heart.
I don't know this time how to discern between two choices. It is consuming me and it feels like there is no one who would understand.