Sleep...
I have such a hard time sleeping. Even though I really want to, it just becomes impossible. Last time I tried, I laid in bed for three hours until I just got sick of it and went to do something. Sometimes I don't even sleep at all and just go on to the next day. I only seem to fall asleep when I get exhausted, so it is just a matter of biding my time until my body wants to fall apart. I do exercise and try to exhaust myself before I go to sleep sometimes to see if it would help, but it does not. Tried some tea and warm milk, doesn't help. Just keep on brooding on what tomorrow brings and I have to do. I just wish I could stay awake forever. I don't ever want to sleep, and yet, there is something so pleasent about dreaming at night, but it could be more of a curse than heaven. Although, I don't beleive I can live without it. It is the drug that keeps my spirits up, huh. One shouldn't dream so much that their dreams seem so much better than their reality. Oh well, something to put my goals on huh. I want to be supreme, I want everyone to know my worth. Who knows what the future holds in store, oh well. Dreams are my heaven, dreams are my hell.... I guess i'll go outside to exercise my butt... I have a nice butt... lol...