just some random thoughts
A Lil too Late!
I cannot help but wonder why people do things. What provokes people into doing things is just perplexing. It is so incredibly odd that people completely change their minds in what seems like an instant. You were the one who said "good bye" not me. So why now do you ask "Why?" Why in this moment in time where it is just too late. Where I am not sorry, where I am not forgiving and I do not care. I am happy now and it took a while to get to that place in time. I let down a wall that I have spent my enitre life building for you. I let you in and voluntarily guided you into my heart. Yet all that caused me was a chance to build thicker walls. You took the one thing I hardly give out. You took my trust and kept it. Locked it away and never intended to give it back. I built that wall up again and it took so long to let it down. No one ever tried hard enough to make it in. Except him... and now I am happy. So why now? Why not then. You wonder why.... you never tried.
I hope that when you realize your stupidity it hurts. It hurts so much that you know the pain you caused me. That you know how you betrayed me. And how that is something I will not forget. So don't tell me your sorry! Don't tell me you regret! I don't want to hear it. I have become numb to it. And I don't care... Don't try and make me think! I will not change my mind. Munipulation is easy when you are in love... I don't love you though. So it must be hard...
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I cannot help but wonder why people do things. What provokes people into doing things is just perplexing. It is so incredibly odd that people completely change their minds in what seems like an instant. You were the one who said "good bye" not me. So why now do you ask "Why?" Why in this moment in time where it is just too late. Where I am not sorry, where I am not forgiving and I do not care. I am happy now and it took a while to get to that place in time. I let down a wall that I have spent my enitre life building for you. I let you in and voluntarily guided you into my heart. Yet all that caused me was a chance to build thicker walls. You took the one thing I hardly give out. You took my trust and kept it. Locked it away and never intended to give it back. I built that wall up again and it took so long to let it down. No one ever tried hard enough to make it in. Except him... and now I am happy. So why now? Why not then. You wonder why.... you never tried.
I hope that when you realize your stupidity it hurts. It hurts so much that you know the pain you caused me. That you know how you betrayed me. And how that is something I will not forget. So don't tell me your sorry! Don't tell me you regret! I don't want to hear it. I have become numb to it. And I don't care... Don't try and make me think! I will not change my mind. Munipulation is easy when you are in love... I don't love you though. So it must be hard...
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