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[tears_of_blood8]

ok so tell me why my dad just called me talking about "what the fuck is your problem?" Whats my problem?? WHATS MY PROBLEM?!?! how about whats your problem?? What was your problem I needed someone... and i mean someone not someTHING. then hes gonna be like "who do u think bought you all those cd's you have?" okay yea maybe you did, but just because you bought me material things is that supposed to make me forgive you for everything else youve done to me and my mom?? Am i supposed to forgive you for never being there when i needed you most? How about for never being there period?? "after all the things ive done for you you have all these fuc*in problems with me.." AFTER ALL THE THINGS YOUVE DONE FOR ME?? right.... after all thsoe games you took me to... so i could get your autographs... after all those thigns youve said to my mom about me.. and then blamed it on her?? I mean am i THAT much of a dissapointment??? Am i really that much of a lowlife?? I know i dont exactly talk to you that much but whens the last time you asked me how i was doing?? Whens the last time you were even home and not locked up in your room?? and then you have to call me selfish among other things? and then you have the nerve to talk about my friends like you know them? name the last time you saw/talked to a friend of mine?its not that i have problems with him, i mean i love him , hes my dad, but maybe i lost respect for him when he decided to go do the things he did. Its kinda ironic though when i was little i was "daddys little girl" the one that followed him everywhere. yup that was me. sometimes i kinda miss that... i just wish everything was how it use to be
anyways thats enough of my crap ... im sorry if your confused im just bein stupid

well tommorows fathers day, im not really looking forward to it... its gonna be a bitch. I doubt he'll even be home but we'll see... well im out for now