my head hurts
*sigh* I dont even know what to think
I've been put into this funk.
I guess... I guess I wouldn't have been upset if she had at least put in an attempt at calling. I mean, she went to florida for a week and she called. She goes to California for two weeks and doesn't even bother. I mean, honestly... she called home where they told her I had called, and then she waits a week later to get online to see if I get on. Then she decides to talk to me. Then after we fight she doesn't even bother to try calling after that.
Something about that isn't right.
I went to Idaho for a week and a half and I called her 3 or 4 times.
I guess I'm just disappointed. I thought I meant more than that to her.
I guess I was wrong.
I just... I don't think I've ever felt quite this alone.
Granted, I knew our paths had begun to split. That was obvious. And since she's a totally different person around him (not that I blame him at all. He's not the one telling her not to call or anything else) the change has just sped up. And now that we haven't spent much over the last 3 months together... and such...
I don't know
The sad thing is, that Seth and Mike are really pretty much picking up in her slack. I mean, Seth is there to do things and listen and such... and Mike is there to listen to... still deciding HOW much he listens... but he's quiet on the other end anc catches bits and pieces so he has an idea of it. *shrug* he's good for different conversations and... other things too. So I'm not complaining.
Anyway, interesting thing happend the other day. I went to the anime house to turn in a movie and rent another and as I'm paying for it I realize I just locked my keys in my car. (okay... so I really suck at remembering to grab the keys.)
Anyway, I said this to her (her name is either Kerri or Carry or something like that. I know how to say it, not how to spell it) and she told me if I did I could come back and use the phone. I ran to check and sure enough, I had. So I come back and I use the phone to try and call Seth as my parents were out to dinner and I don't know my dad's new cell number, and low and behold his cell phone was off. I decided I'd try again later so about that time the pizza she had ordered arrived and she invited me to join her because she was pretty lonely by her self. So I had a slice of pizza and we chatted. I ended up giving her my number because apparently she and Matt are looking for a babysitter because they haven't been real happy with Burnadette or Natalie. *shakes head* anyway, I ended up calling Amanda for a ride and she came down and got me because she had to go down there anyway. that was my fun time. lol.
Another interesting thing with Amanda... she took me to Okasan and I ate sushi. I was proud of myself. lol. I didn't have raw fish on mine... but hers had raw tuna on it. She made me eat it.
*shakes head* Mike says that could be a life-saving experience because who knows when I'm stranded on a deserted island alone what I'll have to do for food. But then again, that's Mike. Who also reminded me that my series doesn't turn out the way that I'm hoping which I know... damnit Ranma and Akane...
*sigh* anyway, I feel better now that I've ranted. :p
Until Next Time...
I've been put into this funk.
I guess... I guess I wouldn't have been upset if she had at least put in an attempt at calling. I mean, she went to florida for a week and she called. She goes to California for two weeks and doesn't even bother. I mean, honestly... she called home where they told her I had called, and then she waits a week later to get online to see if I get on. Then she decides to talk to me. Then after we fight she doesn't even bother to try calling after that.
Something about that isn't right.
I went to Idaho for a week and a half and I called her 3 or 4 times.
I guess I'm just disappointed. I thought I meant more than that to her.
I guess I was wrong.
I just... I don't think I've ever felt quite this alone.
Granted, I knew our paths had begun to split. That was obvious. And since she's a totally different person around him (not that I blame him at all. He's not the one telling her not to call or anything else) the change has just sped up. And now that we haven't spent much over the last 3 months together... and such...
I don't know
The sad thing is, that Seth and Mike are really pretty much picking up in her slack. I mean, Seth is there to do things and listen and such... and Mike is there to listen to... still deciding HOW much he listens... but he's quiet on the other end anc catches bits and pieces so he has an idea of it. *shrug* he's good for different conversations and... other things too. So I'm not complaining.
Anyway, interesting thing happend the other day. I went to the anime house to turn in a movie and rent another and as I'm paying for it I realize I just locked my keys in my car. (okay... so I really suck at remembering to grab the keys.)
Anyway, I said this to her (her name is either Kerri or Carry or something like that. I know how to say it, not how to spell it) and she told me if I did I could come back and use the phone. I ran to check and sure enough, I had. So I come back and I use the phone to try and call Seth as my parents were out to dinner and I don't know my dad's new cell number, and low and behold his cell phone was off. I decided I'd try again later so about that time the pizza she had ordered arrived and she invited me to join her because she was pretty lonely by her self. So I had a slice of pizza and we chatted. I ended up giving her my number because apparently she and Matt are looking for a babysitter because they haven't been real happy with Burnadette or Natalie. *shakes head* anyway, I ended up calling Amanda for a ride and she came down and got me because she had to go down there anyway. that was my fun time. lol.
Another interesting thing with Amanda... she took me to Okasan and I ate sushi. I was proud of myself. lol. I didn't have raw fish on mine... but hers had raw tuna on it. She made me eat it.
*shakes head* Mike says that could be a life-saving experience because who knows when I'm stranded on a deserted island alone what I'll have to do for food. But then again, that's Mike. Who also reminded me that my series doesn't turn out the way that I'm hoping which I know... damnit Ranma and Akane...
*sigh* anyway, I feel better now that I've ranted. :p
Until Next Time...