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Have you ever had that feeling that everyone around you is just fading away into nothing-ness and that most of them don't matter to you anymore? I have, actually AM. Everyone that I used to be close with don't seem to matter anymore. Well I don't matter to them.. so why would they matter to me? Yeah.. theres my point. I honestly can only relate to like 2 people, who I can honestly sit down and talk with. And tell them how I am feeling. No one else understands..
I don't know what to call it? There are so many nights where I lay awake and think of how much my life means to me, and what I mean to others. I come up very rarely with a good reason. There are so many things holding me, and then not. I wish for anything to go to a new place, for a new enviroment. A new life. I wish..
I need someone to just hold me, and tell me everything is alright. I had that.. Jami. You're so stupid. Idiotic. I can't get close to anyone and I will openly say that. I have seen it. That talk with "him" made me realize it..
So many of my friends seem happy, why can't I have that? Its weird. I'm happy in the moment, but afterwords its like "Did that night really make me happy?" Yes.. but for such a short period of time. I want that certain thing that makes me feel like I have something to offer. Someone to tell me, that they love me, to hold me. I want that. I do, I really do..
I want something to do in this lifetime that makes me feel accomplished...
<3
Jami Marie
I don't know what to call it? There are so many nights where I lay awake and think of how much my life means to me, and what I mean to others. I come up very rarely with a good reason. There are so many things holding me, and then not. I wish for anything to go to a new place, for a new enviroment. A new life. I wish..
I need someone to just hold me, and tell me everything is alright. I had that.. Jami. You're so stupid. Idiotic. I can't get close to anyone and I will openly say that. I have seen it. That talk with "him" made me realize it..
So many of my friends seem happy, why can't I have that? Its weird. I'm happy in the moment, but afterwords its like "Did that night really make me happy?" Yes.. but for such a short period of time. I want that certain thing that makes me feel like I have something to offer. Someone to tell me, that they love me, to hold me. I want that. I do, I really do..
I want something to do in this lifetime that makes me feel accomplished...
<3
Jami Marie