A New Year post...
Copied from Xanga so if you read that you don't need to read this too!
Happy New Year all!!!
Since it is now a new year I am going to reflect on the past year a little bit... so if you get bored, well, stop reading! :)
2005
Overall, it was a good year. Although it included some low points, it was, by far, one of the best years of my life. It began like a normal year, but progressively became better. I wasn't in the best place, mentally, before, but the year helped that. And I grew... a lot. I learned more about myself and I've started to turn around certain aspects of my life.
In February 2005 I made one of the best decisions of my 20 years. I pledged APO. Now, I understand some people may not agree with frats and all that, even if we aren't really a frat, but I feel it was an amazing opportunity for me. That week was one of the toughest, but it pushed me further then I thought I could go. I learned through that week that I am so much stronger and capable of so much more then I had thought. I grew closer to people, like Sarah, who has become one of my closest friends. And last, I began to believe in myself... and if you truely know me, you know that is something all in itself. I can go on and on about it, but I've done that before so I will spare you all. (If you really want, just look at a post from then and you will capture just a hint of how I felt.)
March meant One-Acts. Sarah had cast me in Laundry and Burbon, the best show, by the way. It was a huge role and something to push me. Push me it did, and apparently I impressed people. I grew in my acting through that show and I got a chance that I needed to prove to some, and mainly myself, that I CAN hold my own in a show. Another amazing moment of the year.
Now, even though all of this good was happening, there were points that were not good. I was struggling with how I was treated and how I felt in a group of friends. But worse then that my I found out my Pepe had been having complications with cancer, though things were looking up, until he had a heart attack... so bad that had he not been in front of a doctor he would not have made it. Thank God for miracles. One of the hardest things for me at that point was being at school and not feeling like I had the best support system because some of the people I was hanging out with then seemed to not care. After he was treated they found the cancer, that he was told was gone, really hadn't been taken care of and was worse. He ended up having surgery and no longer has a bladder and part of his pancreas, but he is alive and thats a wonderful thing. He is doing ok, in and out of the hospital, but he sounded really good when I talked to him earlier. :) Besides all of this happening some people close to me lost some important people in their lives. They are staying strong though, and I keep praying for both, and prayer is an amazing thing. Speaking of prayer, it has kept me strong and I feel so blessed for having a year that has had bad times, but more good times that completely outweigh the rest. So... on to more good times!
Towards the end of April we had our annual PA Banquet. Around this time I was starting to hang out with other people who I felt better with. At this banquet I was honored with the title of Secretary of Alpha Psi Omega, and if you know how much I love this organization then you know just a fraction of what this meant to me. I have never been honored so much... I am still honored. I love love love love... (and on)... this position and the organization.
May began summer break. What a crazy crazy crazy summer. I started wrking at Ham's towards the end of the month. I waited tables... and that is something I DID NOT want to do, but I neeeeeded money... and I was planning on doing something completely out of my box... and completely amazing. I needed money for that. Now, working at Ham's was an adventure all on its own. And as it turns out I wasn't so bad at my job... ;)
On to the adventure of the summer... or of my life... I decided that 2 years was way too long to go without seeing one of my favorite people in the world (literally... ha) so why no save money up and travel? I have always wanted to travel and I only have one summer break left after this one and I need to work the next one so... I'll go to Sweden! And go to Sweden I did. Best decision of the year, number 2. I not only travelled and saw many new, cool places, but I got to catch up, IN PERSON, with one of my best friends. I saw where he grew up and everything, which was just fabulous. And now I want to go back... ha... travelling is fun!
I got back to school right after I returned to the states and began my JUNIOR/SUNIOR year. It was a rough, busy semester, but it turned out well and I still have my 3.9something! YAY! Oh, and I was in the musical so that was fun to be on Hayes! :) And I have hung out with great people and I am not so self conscious with them. ALSO, I started to work on things about myself I can't stand... I'm still not at the point where I want to tell all, but I have talked to one person about one thing and I'm working on it. Along with working on my side of a relationship with someone who hurt me in the past... who I don't think they really know how it affected me... maybe one day I will be able to talk to them about it, but for now I need to work on myself and all the insecurities and make them drift far far away. Anyway, I growing up, and as scary as that is, its also exciting and I'm kind of ready... so to 2006 I say... BRING IT! I'm ready to grow more, change more... and hopefully gat a job for this summer! LOL. Here I come!
Well... maybe I should sleep first... ;) Once again, Happy New Year Ya'll!
Happy New Year all!!!
Since it is now a new year I am going to reflect on the past year a little bit... so if you get bored, well, stop reading! :)
2005
Overall, it was a good year. Although it included some low points, it was, by far, one of the best years of my life. It began like a normal year, but progressively became better. I wasn't in the best place, mentally, before, but the year helped that. And I grew... a lot. I learned more about myself and I've started to turn around certain aspects of my life.
In February 2005 I made one of the best decisions of my 20 years. I pledged APO. Now, I understand some people may not agree with frats and all that, even if we aren't really a frat, but I feel it was an amazing opportunity for me. That week was one of the toughest, but it pushed me further then I thought I could go. I learned through that week that I am so much stronger and capable of so much more then I had thought. I grew closer to people, like Sarah, who has become one of my closest friends. And last, I began to believe in myself... and if you truely know me, you know that is something all in itself. I can go on and on about it, but I've done that before so I will spare you all. (If you really want, just look at a post from then and you will capture just a hint of how I felt.)
March meant One-Acts. Sarah had cast me in Laundry and Burbon, the best show, by the way. It was a huge role and something to push me. Push me it did, and apparently I impressed people. I grew in my acting through that show and I got a chance that I needed to prove to some, and mainly myself, that I CAN hold my own in a show. Another amazing moment of the year.
Now, even though all of this good was happening, there were points that were not good. I was struggling with how I was treated and how I felt in a group of friends. But worse then that my I found out my Pepe had been having complications with cancer, though things were looking up, until he had a heart attack... so bad that had he not been in front of a doctor he would not have made it. Thank God for miracles. One of the hardest things for me at that point was being at school and not feeling like I had the best support system because some of the people I was hanging out with then seemed to not care. After he was treated they found the cancer, that he was told was gone, really hadn't been taken care of and was worse. He ended up having surgery and no longer has a bladder and part of his pancreas, but he is alive and thats a wonderful thing. He is doing ok, in and out of the hospital, but he sounded really good when I talked to him earlier. :) Besides all of this happening some people close to me lost some important people in their lives. They are staying strong though, and I keep praying for both, and prayer is an amazing thing. Speaking of prayer, it has kept me strong and I feel so blessed for having a year that has had bad times, but more good times that completely outweigh the rest. So... on to more good times!
Towards the end of April we had our annual PA Banquet. Around this time I was starting to hang out with other people who I felt better with. At this banquet I was honored with the title of Secretary of Alpha Psi Omega, and if you know how much I love this organization then you know just a fraction of what this meant to me. I have never been honored so much... I am still honored. I love love love love... (and on)... this position and the organization.
May began summer break. What a crazy crazy crazy summer. I started wrking at Ham's towards the end of the month. I waited tables... and that is something I DID NOT want to do, but I neeeeeded money... and I was planning on doing something completely out of my box... and completely amazing. I needed money for that. Now, working at Ham's was an adventure all on its own. And as it turns out I wasn't so bad at my job... ;)
On to the adventure of the summer... or of my life... I decided that 2 years was way too long to go without seeing one of my favorite people in the world (literally... ha) so why no save money up and travel? I have always wanted to travel and I only have one summer break left after this one and I need to work the next one so... I'll go to Sweden! And go to Sweden I did. Best decision of the year, number 2. I not only travelled and saw many new, cool places, but I got to catch up, IN PERSON, with one of my best friends. I saw where he grew up and everything, which was just fabulous. And now I want to go back... ha... travelling is fun!
I got back to school right after I returned to the states and began my JUNIOR/SUNIOR year. It was a rough, busy semester, but it turned out well and I still have my 3.9something! YAY! Oh, and I was in the musical so that was fun to be on Hayes! :) And I have hung out with great people and I am not so self conscious with them. ALSO, I started to work on things about myself I can't stand... I'm still not at the point where I want to tell all, but I have talked to one person about one thing and I'm working on it. Along with working on my side of a relationship with someone who hurt me in the past... who I don't think they really know how it affected me... maybe one day I will be able to talk to them about it, but for now I need to work on myself and all the insecurities and make them drift far far away. Anyway, I growing up, and as scary as that is, its also exciting and I'm kind of ready... so to 2006 I say... BRING IT! I'm ready to grow more, change more... and hopefully gat a job for this summer! LOL. Here I come!
Well... maybe I should sleep first... ;) Once again, Happy New Year Ya'll!