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[tearingusapart]

yea so today i went with kelly and mareike to the beach.. it was a really nice day. i liked it alot. i felt so bad for dre because he had to stay home in paso.. it was 117 degrees today :( me and cory are getting more distant each day. i hate it so much. sometimes it feels like i dont even know him.. it seems like he is transforming into one of "them" i wont mention who them is though.. not yet at least. i dont know.. im so confused. i love kelly so much.. and ronnie too.. i thank god for them. tomorrow is going to be the worst day in the world. tomorrow will be the day when everyone is gone and you are just missing. fuck.
sucks how the only time i write anything here is when it is bad. whatever though