saved

[tearing_a_hole]

i long only to be held and care for
why cant it be
am i to die alone and bitter
what the hell is wrong with me
my face is blackened and my eyes are sewn shut
with fear and sorrow
i no longer wish to love anything
just cut the heart right out of me

-atreyu

I'm so glad lawrence saved me from this. i love him dearly. and i treat him like shit sometimes. sry. thanks for giving me some one to love that loves me back.