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i just found out lawrence has to go to iowa on saturday. thp! it's going to suck. well not completely. now i will have time to myself. i've been doing a lot of thinking. for one thing lawrence and i can have some time away from each other. we are starting to get on each other's nerves. i can feel the tension. plus i've been doing some major thinking about me. people dont know the real me. i'm too quiet and hidden with who i am. i'm not going to hold back anymore. i don't care what people think. i am who i am and i'm going to start being more up front with it. people need to know me before they have a right to critisize or insult me. i'll admit when their critisism and insults are true. like the one some people seem to believe. i'm not fake. but i dont show people all of me or who i really am in the first place. so i completely understand when people call me fake because they really dont know me. now if their just trying to be a bitch then whatever. fuck them. i really dont give a shit.