i'm going bonkers!
my mother is home 24/7 since she has been laid off. this is driving me crazy! as most of my friends know, i don't go partying, i have never been drunk, i don't do drugs, heck i have never even been to a kegger. i'm not a party person i have never been clubbing, for heaven's sake i think i'm a pretty responsible child. i work and make my own way through school and i have never asked my parents for money, but i even help pay of some of the bills at home. so i think i'm doing pretty well off for myself. but she knows that i struggle to make it through my payments and therefore i need to work, and she's lecture'n me about how late i come home from work. I'm a hard worker and i think i'm pretty good at what i do. it's not like she's helping me with my payments, so why the heck does she keep lectureing me about how much of a bad kid i am and how much "Freedom" she has allowed me to have? WTF??!?!?!... what freedom?? the only freedom i get is that i make my own money and spend my money how i need to spend it, but of crouse not without her lecture'n me about how i waste my money. WTF?! it's all messed up and i'm tired of it! i call home every day i stay downtown for school, i come home on weekends, then i go to work come home, teach piano on my normal days, and it's not like i just go where i want whenever i want. this is f'd up! i don't like to swear but she's driving me insane. i'm home for an entire day, and this is what i get. nothing but lecture'n and she wonder's why i don't like come'n home or staying home. i would rather work my 14 hours work days then be at home when all my mother does is lecture and all my dad does is double ask me everything a million times and when my mother lectures him, she takes all his anger out on me. so i'm stuck here on my own with two people who can't stand each other's company, and my mother who doesn't talk to anyone make'n my life seem like the worst daughter award. this is why i want to move out. but i don't have the heart to leave my mom even after all this.... i really do wish that someone will be able to show my mom that i'm not a bad kid. and make her realize i'm not staying out til 1am partying, but i'm working. working for money that i need and that this family doesn't have.