this isnt the end ill see you soon

[tearfromthered5]

ive recently joined marcia marcia marcia dereks other band.i was originaly soposed to be i nthe band in the begining but skipped a try out for a show.dumb mistake.so then everystarted talkin about haven me in and replacing the other singer.he was always busy and picky and kind of bossy.so they wanted me in because i was more open and avalble and just better freidns with them guys.so they gave me and derek a lil test to se how well we worked together.they gave us a new song withotu vocals and lyrics,our goal was to put lyrics in get it down and impress the guys.we did it pretty well we got the lyrics in, in 30 minutes.then we jammed it at thursdays practice and iwas in. this band has a lot of good thigns going already,hopeless records it giveing them a chance to get signed before they even played a show!!!ssb is def lookin up too with getting more recinized and gettin merch.march 4th we start recording our ep!everything is great.....except that empty space that still remains.things are looking up between me and ashley and were very close to getting back together.and if that happens i will be totaly satisfied,and incredibly happy.we miss eachother so much and shes willing to fight.knowing that is so great she has realize that we can do it and get through anything which is an amazing feeling.i def love her so much.me and derek both have goals in life,to not have to break our backs to a job we dont want to do.were going to go as far as possible with music.parents always say awww dadada u will grow out of it and go to college and get a job and get married fuck that,and have a job that u hate?thats a last resort.ill admit we will be poor probably gettign through makeing music and what not,but its all worth it.your life was ment enjoy, at least i think.thats what makes me the person i am.layed back and not given a shit and just haven fun,alot of people need to just stop and think about that once and a while.

i miss you <3

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