Let me make this Crystal Clear for all of you...
I.. ( as in me... brandon...browndon...tearen...branmuffin )
Wish ( desperatly want.. daydream about everyday..)
I ( already covered )
was ( past tense already happened... didnt experience the present or following day )
dead ( no longer feeling... no more pain..fuck the happiness its too scarce anyways )
and honestly i dont give a fuck about most the people in the world anymore... i care about a handful ...and actually theres really only one person im staying alive for...and sometimes.. when i get really really childish i blame her for my pain..when it obviously is not..
courtney, im living for you.. that is the only reason that i dont have a knife in my throat at this moment right fucking now...
i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life... i hate than im so alone.. i hate that i feel so abandoned by people i loved.. i hate feeling this way.. and i hate not knowing what to do... being so absolutly lost that my head feels like its splitting. and i hate that no one is here for me.. RIGHT FUCKING NOW..and i hate how im whining.. over trival pain...
Wish ( desperatly want.. daydream about everyday..)
I ( already covered )
was ( past tense already happened... didnt experience the present or following day )
dead ( no longer feeling... no more pain..fuck the happiness its too scarce anyways )
and honestly i dont give a fuck about most the people in the world anymore... i care about a handful ...and actually theres really only one person im staying alive for...and sometimes.. when i get really really childish i blame her for my pain..when it obviously is not..
courtney, im living for you.. that is the only reason that i dont have a knife in my throat at this moment right fucking now...
i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life.. i hate my life... i hate than im so alone.. i hate that i feel so abandoned by people i loved.. i hate feeling this way.. and i hate not knowing what to do... being so absolutly lost that my head feels like its splitting. and i hate that no one is here for me.. RIGHT FUCKING NOW..and i hate how im whining.. over trival pain...