Reading less of me........

Apr 09, 2005 18:15

Okay, so I am here to announce that you will be reading less of me. I have made a vow not to waste so much time doing things that, well, waste time...hehee. I just had a chat with my mom about some stuff. It wasn't an arguement, it was just a relaxed chat about how I need to contribute more around the house if I would like to maintain my level of socialness, since my parents fund a lot of my spending money. I actaully had to agree with my mom.

Sometimes I write here because I REALLY need to to write, and typing things out just appeals to me more thean writing it in my journal for some reason. I can type fairly fast and sometimes I feel like I have so mucyh to say that Ijust want to let it spill out all at once, like the water gushing over Niagra Falls. However, this last week especially, I didn't do a very good job on my school work, and I should have been helping my mom around the house more because my gramma is here recovering from surgery and she(my mom) is tired and stressed. Instead, I spent a lot of time on the computer chatting, reading live journals and watching music videos right after school. Then I would just find ways not to do my homework until later in the evening..... Stay up until 11 doing it when I was tired and didn't care much, and go to bed without really having helped my mom, other then on Monday when I came home and made cornbread to go with chili for dinner.

A lot of my firends will actually get in touble for not keeping their room clean. As long as I clean my room when I am asked, I have never been disicplined for how my room looks in between cleanings or for how long I can keep it clean. A lot of people that I know just have more household responsiblilities then me in general. This includes babysitting little family peeps, laundry, cleaning WITHOUT being specifically asked to do it, or cleaning a specific area of the house that they always clean, for example, it is the duty of one of my firends to always clean up the kitchen. The kitchen is her responsibility. (And its not like her family makes big huge messes and then leaves them for her to deal with....in general though, she is the one to spruce it up)

So, I have come to the conclusion that I have really gotten off the hook, and perhaps, or maybe not perhaps, maybe it is just a cold hard fact that I am spoiled when it comes to this area. And I don't like it cause I think that my mom has really been getting dumped on, and thats not fair and for whatever reason she hasn't gotten sick enough of it just to snap and freak out at the whole family. ANd I don't want to be the spoiled lazy kid who doesn't help. I feel bad that I have been taking advantage of the situation as it is. There is also the benefit that doing more work could help me better learn how to organize things and balance time for college.

So, I heard a speaker once say that it is a proven fact that if you write your goals down on a piece of paper you are 90% more likey to achieve them and that if you write the steps to achieveing those goals out that you are even more likely to achieve them.

My goal is to be a more productive and neat member of the family.

I will achieve this goal by not touching the computer until my homework is done (unless I need it for homework) and until I have completed at least one chore. even if this is something as simple as sweeping the kitchen floor after dinner, a chore is a chore and a start in the right direction. If I don't want to hit the books right when I get home from school, I can always exercise or do my chore(s) then.

I will make an effort to do things without being asked, but I will also ask my mom if she would like anything specific to be accomplished.

I will make a VERY sincere effort to keep my room clean. I may not have the time to do this until summer, but I will give my room a full throttle cleaning (under the bed, organize my closet....ACK!) and then make a conscious effort to keep it nicer then I have been.

Now, I like a room, a house, a car, that actually looks lived in/used. I will never be one of those spotless people. I just won't be. but, if I could just not throw clothes all over the place, OR *novel idea* hang them up when I was done thorwing them, my room would be in much better shape.....

Okay, that is it for now. I think that starting small is good because if I don't then I will feel like a failure and become discourage and quit. Just to engrave it it my head, one last final summary.....

My goal is to contibute to the house and the family. I will do this by eliminating time waster activities like the interenet until after my schoolwork and chores are complete. Everyday I will walk around the house and find at least one chore to complete without being asked. I will not throw clothes around my room. I will hang my clothes up.

As I make my once a week entries, which will most likely come over the weekend, unless I really need to bust out a poem or something, I will use this journal as a place where I must honostly evaluate my success or lack there of at my new goal.
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