I feel...
that whenever I write in here, I'm writing because I'm upset. Well, I'm upset again, and I'm gonna write about it. So...WARNING...I'm upset, and although I'm not an unhappy person, it's gonna seem like it, cuz I always complain in here, but who cares.
I don't even know what's wrong...I wish I did. Because it would explain why I'm acting like this, and why I feel like bawling my eyes out. I feel like all I ever do now is cry. I threw up 27 times on Wednesday, and I guess that gave me reason to cry, but still...I bawled my eyes out. The week before that, I tore my ligament, and bawled. My roomies must think I'll I do is cry, or I'm upset, or maybe they even think that I'm an attention hog. Who knows. I guess I make some of my roomies feel fat...it was probably a joke, but it made me think about the comments I make about people...gotta be more careful. Sometimes I say things that I don't mean the way other people take them, so whatever.
Eric...haven't seen him for a while cuz I got upset that he wouldn't take me home when I wanted to go. I saw him today for like a little bit. He had something of mine, that basically I should just give to him, because I never have it anyway. It's still not working the right way and stuff, and it's just annoying.
AJ...we got in a fight, but it's okay now. Just something stupid. He wont tell me he loves me anymore, cuz I should just trust that he does, but whatever. I really should just get over trying to be his really good friend, or anything when I'm in college. When I'm at home, it's okay, cuz well...he's actually around. But when I'm far away...well it's just hard to keep my other relationships with people...especially if they don't wanna be that close to me.
SOMETHING HAPPY: I found my best friend from 4th grade on facebook, and now we're talking again, and it's amazing! I LOVE IT!
This kid I kinda like, wasn't going to homecoming cuz he didn't have enough money, so was said. Tonight I asked him if he asked someone...and he said he had. I was shocked...but whatever. Who cares about that? Right? It's stupid.
You would think Randy would take me to Homecoming...but 30 dollars is too much to spend on a dance....he used to send his laundry home every 2 weeks so his mom could do it and then send it back. That would cost 230 dollars...every TWO weeks, and 30 dollars for a dance is too much. Yeah...that's what I thought.
What else?...who knows...I'm sure there's more that's upseting me, but I just don't even care. It's like almost 12 am here, and I think I wanna cook something. I made lemon pie the other day, and that was awesomely good, so yeah....I was shocked how good it was actually. Just like back home... oh well, more later I'm sure...Jackie