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Today started off perfectly. I didnt eat breakfast. I ate 4 baby carrots and half a cup of soup for lunch. I had track practice after school and I felt great when I got home. Then I decided to eat a banana to help with my leg cramps from running. And one thing led to another and I ended up bingeing a lot. I have a hard time purging and I could do it all. I feel so low. Well as usual I hate half the people in my school. I feel like a fat ass and am ashamed to even walk down the hall ways at school. I miss my boyfriend terribly I just realized. I see him at school but its just not the same as being with him outside of school. I want him. :'( As for my school work... I just dont feel motivated to do most of it. I have okay grades except for my american government class. I fucking hate the way the teacher teaches in that stupid class. I dont understand anything. God im such a mistake. I wish I could just lose weight and be thin and beautiful and happy.