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[tearcatcherxoxo]

from the falsest smile to the fear of death is why

i just drove around
after taking three sleeping pills
im so smart
sometimes it actually hurts.

i wanted to write a lot
then i decided im not in a great mood.
screw this, like anyone reads
or cares about this fucking journal.

im making all my posts private
no one can read them but me
because i figure im the only person
that reads them anyways.

ryans always right.
what a bum he is.
i hit three road barrels tonight
and went off the road twice
i honestly cant believe i made it home
im not sure i wanted to.

i know im ugly
but im a good person
well i thought so.
until tonight.

i must be delusional
and immature
and retarded
and just plain blind.

shit.

the pain reminds us that we're still alive.