california's not so far
some boy called me today
told me that he misses me
and he misses
when i was the only girl
that paid him any attention
and it wasnt because
he was in a band
or gourgeous
it made me sad.
almost to the point of tears.
someone told me today
that i was a
"walking band-aid"
and that he's never seen me
completely healthy.
at that point i realized
that being here is making me sick.
'home is where you make it'
bullshit.
home is where my heart is.
almost as cliche as i am.
i need a new life.
im so confused about everything
especially what I am doing with my life.
i've always gone against the grain
but
i feel like i'm being sucked in
to the 9-5 world
that i dont want to be in
faster
and
faster.
i've been fake since ive been here
it sucks.
i've never cared what people thought about me
and today i almost got bulshitted
into wearing a fucking polo shirt.
FUCK THAT SHIT!
i give up.
if they dont like me
they can blow me.
i dont like them anyway.
yes im the girl who laughs out loud [too loud]
when people fall and especially get hurt.
and im the one who screams in public
and im the kid that burps when shes wants to
and cusses to fucking much
and says what she thinks
and always talks too loud
and im the chick that says what she thinks
whether it hurts or not
who doesnt take stupid shit
and wont buy into your fake self absorbed drama
and im the one who dresses like a "freak"
because she wears ripped t's instead of ripped jeans
and plays dress up on a daily basis
and doesnt try to "make you feel better"
by playing into your ego and lying to you
to tell you that you're amazing
WHEN YOU'RE NOTHING SPECIAL.
i'm the only one here thats keeping it real
so fuck you and your conservative point of view.
ineedout
when I close my eyes and wonder where you are...
rnoasysr
told me that he misses me
and he misses
when i was the only girl
that paid him any attention
and it wasnt because
he was in a band
or gourgeous
it made me sad.
almost to the point of tears.
someone told me today
that i was a
"walking band-aid"
and that he's never seen me
completely healthy.
at that point i realized
that being here is making me sick.
'home is where you make it'
bullshit.
home is where my heart is.
almost as cliche as i am.
i need a new life.
im so confused about everything
especially what I am doing with my life.
i've always gone against the grain
but
i feel like i'm being sucked in
to the 9-5 world
that i dont want to be in
faster
and
faster.
i've been fake since ive been here
it sucks.
i've never cared what people thought about me
and today i almost got bulshitted
into wearing a fucking polo shirt.
FUCK THAT SHIT!
i give up.
if they dont like me
they can blow me.
i dont like them anyway.
yes im the girl who laughs out loud [too loud]
when people fall and especially get hurt.
and im the one who screams in public
and im the kid that burps when shes wants to
and cusses to fucking much
and says what she thinks
and always talks too loud
and im the chick that says what she thinks
whether it hurts or not
who doesnt take stupid shit
and wont buy into your fake self absorbed drama
and im the one who dresses like a "freak"
because she wears ripped t's instead of ripped jeans
and plays dress up on a daily basis
and doesnt try to "make you feel better"
by playing into your ego and lying to you
to tell you that you're amazing
WHEN YOU'RE NOTHING SPECIAL.
i'm the only one here thats keeping it real
so fuck you and your conservative point of view.
ineedout
when I close my eyes and wonder where you are...
rnoasysr