What The Hell *rambling on and on*

[tear_of_red]

A bunch of questions that shall never be answered(Im sure)!!!

Why do you hurt me like this?
Why do you not care?
What did I do to you?
Why cant you see that you are hurting me?
Why do you not love me?
What can I do to show you that I love you?
Why cant you see that I hurt because of you?
Why do you hate me like you do?
Why do you never call?
What the fuck did I fucking do to you ?
You took everything away from me
you broke my heart in two
but you dont care
you never have
and
you never will
FUCK YOU TOO THEN!!!

Things have been so fucking crazy these past few weeks that i have time for no one,
I am pushing people further and further away from me(some DONT care ....)but I am to the point
whatever makes people happy, If people dont like me they can kiss my fucking ass, Because I
have gotten to the point where I DONT care what people think about me, I am so sick of feeling
pain because people dont like me...FUCK YOU,IF YOU DONT LIKE ME I DONT CARE- sadly I will never
be able to tell some people that, Too bad....

I have been cutting more now, Oh well I guess ....the latest one was.....
"Pain NEVER Ends"
That shit hurt like hell after the fact though
but at the time I Felt NOTHING,
that could be a good thing and could be a bad thing
but i think that
i am too fucking stupid to know....

Oh well though Life goes on, Not really
not my life**NOT SUICIDAL**
I am always going to be stuck here in
the same miserable place
NEVER getting better
Only Worse,
I know that I can change that but
It causes alot of pain,
the process to getting better that is.
Whatever,
I think that I am done "running my mouth"(so to speak)
So whatever
Peace out much
Love-maybe
Jessica