Dec 30, 2005 09:17
ok. i just came from grandma's house, it's 7 am in the morning. (Friday)
it all started wednesday, i guess thats a good place to start. while gma was home by herself she fell down on her head we think, and laid unconscious for 16-20 hrs and woke up at two today. she missed two appointments that day because she could not get to the bell to ring the people in. when she got to her bed she called my dad and he came running to her house from the diners and found her ok. then my dad left and he went home and took a shower and cried and everything. while dad was gone grandma had to go to the bathroom. and, as we found out, she can't walk on her own anymore; it took us 30 minutes to travel 30 feet with her, and 30 minutes back. mind you she could walk perfectly fine yesterday. (its really thursday, but i mean wednesday when she fell).
i forgot to mention, my mom, since she doesnt have to work, is being paid to help grandma with hospice care, but she's not full time. mkay
part of the problem is that when my grandma fell and everything, she missed her meds...and now we're playing catch-up and her whole sleep pattern is off, so are her meds, which are perty serious...
so my mom dad and i are all there and we find out that she wants to watch a movie and have some pizza. she wanted to watch 'life aquatic' so we went down to the movie store and got that and picked up a pizza from calafoods. when we started the movie and sat down for pizza it was about 11:30 pm...we got done with the movie around 1, and she asked me to stay and sleep with her tonight. so we got her ready for bed, and my mom was still there. i got grandma some water, she has problems with her mouth, it's constantly dry from the radiation treatment. so she drank and drank her water, and i got her some diet ginger ale to drink, just because she wanted some, and placed it by her bed. going to bed grandma had two glasses next to her and one of them had water, the other ginger ale. we were both laying in the same bed after my mom left and gma kept going through papers and things, and she started talking to me about a guy in the military, and said he had a funny quote, so she started looking in her book of quotes for it. the problem with that is, she started reading from the beginning, and her brain was sending memories from her notes. she said to me, ''catherine(my lil sis), how are you enjoying that book?'', then five minutes later, ''mark, did i hear you saying something about your grades?'', next was something about her laughing with one of her friends and carrying on a conversation by herself. when she woke up from that mess, she started cleaning her dentures and putting them in her cup, shes very embarassed about them. so she cleaned and cleaned. and then she drank her water and ginger ale. and i kept on hearing her pooring more ginger ale, and i kept hearing clashing noises..she had been pooring the ginger ale in the glass with her dentures.
now, she decided it was time to go to bed. my mom left at 2:30, it was now 3:33. she shut off her light and started talking about thing again for about 5 minutes, and then she fell asleep, only for about 20 minutes. i had awoke to a loud bang. she had tried to get out of bed and had herself balancing between her bed and her lampstand so i jumped over to the other side of the bed to help her back on.
while we were sitting there she was having conversations with herself about various things, and acting like she was talking to friends, and they were responding. after about 20 minutes of that she said she needed to go to the bathroom again, because she had been drinking all of that water and ginger ale. so i called my mom to come help me, it was 4 am, but she came anyways. so we tried to get her to the bathroom. we got her standing, and she took two baby steps over 2 minutes, and we got her as far as the edge of the bed. and she said that she didnt want to go anymore. we sat her back farther up on the bed. and wow, she asked me questions like, did you stop by the shop? how long are they open for? i responded with im not sure, i didnt think to ask, sorry. she kept on asking me all of these strange questions, none of them having to do with the next, and i had to think of answers right on the spot without confusing her but not answering something that was wrong. to her i was not always 'joel', sometimes i was one of her friends, scary. she also asked me to get her a pizza, twice, at 4 in the morning, but she didnt know she was asking, and then she decided that she wasnt hungry. another time she asked me to get her water and she handed me her cup, and i came back 15 seconds later with her water and she asked me if i had put the tea bag in yet. she still hasn't drank her tea.
next she looked at my mom who was standing next to her and looked at her bracelet that was my dad's, and she admired it, and then she looked at my mom's ring. and she started talking about their wedding and everything. throughout grandma talking to me and my mom, my mom was crying throughout this whole thing, and she asked me to run and get my dad, without grandma seeing her say it. and i came in and woke my dad up and explained to him that i think she has alzheimers, or something to that affect. it's definitely a neurological problem. but he came over and talked to her and explained that he wanted a nurse to come over, and my grandma doesnt like that because shes a very independent person and it hurts her heart when she cant do something by herself. then my dad had me come down and get my sisters, and grandma took a picture with each one of us, not knowing why, but just looking at it as a photo op. im not sure whats going to happen, but my mom and dad are down there right now...
i guess now would be a good time to get everything out. im not sure if i should, but ill see how far i get in this chapter of my life called san fran and where i stop, ill stop
wow, ok. i dont feel like typing or writing anymore....freaking weird. i guess ill write more later?