(no subject)
Whatever pulled me over here,
you were the main contender.
Baby, I think things might be getting better;
but I don't want to jinx it, so don't tell anyone I said anything or anything.
Today I watched Plum turn into a prune.
I kind of feel like, today, in the shower, next to you next to you, we washed away most of the bad.
Scrubbing my hair twice: I still didn't get all the dirt out from behind my ears, I fear.
But you let me put my hands on your back, you let me put my hands on your thighs,
but you said, "let me just bring up the fact that you cheated on me,"
but you let me run my fingers through your hair.
Mixed signals? I'm mixed up? I'm mixed up.
So where does this leave me? Where I want to be.
Almost.
Arms around me..is it "buck" or "butt", because I don't know, but does it matter at this point?
We were under a blanket & I'm pretty sure all I was thinking about was what our house would look like & how our legs tangled better than anyone's in the world.
Sitting on that fence in the middle of, god knows where, but not butt-fucking Egypt, you told me:
"Baby, find me a horse. Baby, buy me a horse."
& I couldn't. I told you I couldn't. I fell short.
The one time we actually talked on the phone..
& you couldn't even put in the effort to stay focused.
I won't give up on us, will you? I won't.
I mean, I don't know how much I can say I'm sorry before it starts to mean something,
I've been meaning it this whole time.
But I'm glad you shut the lights off
& I'm glad you got in
& I'm glad you touched my back
& my arms will never be as soft as yours
&, kid, your tits are fine.
&, baby, we'll be fine.
JBED88: i want to say im sorry
JBED88: for being a bastard
JBED88: the other night
JBED88: i was wrong
JBED88: im being serious tho
JBED88: i shouldnt have kissed u
JBED88: and im not drunk
& for all of you that love everything that makes me smile:
[New obsession, BTW.]