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My dad said that I should continue going to work for this next week (and he's probably right) but I decided that I am not going to. I know I should rack in as much money as I can, but I also really need the time to figure out what I need to do in order to transfer my credits from Valencia to SCF. I need to pack all my stuff. Need to figure a lot of shit out.
I'm scheduled to work in 2 hours from now. Haven't called. I really don't want to call in and tell them that I'm quitting. :( I guess I should probably man up and call...I just feel so stupid.
My dad said that I couldn't take home any of the kittens. Ha, he said "NO CATS" before I even asked if it was a possibility. This sucks. I'm just happy that he'll always let me bring home Roupy. I think Roupy is all I can handle for a pet right now anyways. He's a hand full alone. lol Really.
I hope things are better at home this time around. Whenever I am at home with my family I end up feeling hopelessly insane. My parents are almost impossible to talk to for some reason. It's like their brains are always somewhere in space. My mom really cares but for the longest time I've always wanted to TALK to her because that's how I show that I care about someone. Through words. She's shows that she cares by providing and I have to learn to accept that. (And I am.) I am learning that my mom doesn't really know how to communicate so when she says crazy shit that offends me I'm just not going to react to it. Same with my dad for the most part but he will talk to me. It's just hard to find the time to get to him throughout his busy day. My dad never stops to relax. He's almost always working on something. And Rene'e...Renee's so hard to live with because she always thinks I'm trying to get in her way (makes no sense.) She has this superiority complex and the last time I was there I noticed that she was trying to set "ground rules" by using tactics from the DOG WHISPERER. Hahahaha! I couldn't believe it!!! I didn't say anything because I was so freaked out that she was trying to TRAIN me that I just let her do it for as long as she wanted. LMAO
Anyways, I just know that when I go home I need to be chill. Need to not freak out and get emotional. My family really doesn't read into much of anything they say or do so I can't do that either. I already feel crazy enough...don't need to dig the wounds deeper.
I'm scheduled to work in 2 hours from now. Haven't called. I really don't want to call in and tell them that I'm quitting. :( I guess I should probably man up and call...I just feel so stupid.
My dad said that I couldn't take home any of the kittens. Ha, he said "NO CATS" before I even asked if it was a possibility. This sucks. I'm just happy that he'll always let me bring home Roupy. I think Roupy is all I can handle for a pet right now anyways. He's a hand full alone. lol Really.
I hope things are better at home this time around. Whenever I am at home with my family I end up feeling hopelessly insane. My parents are almost impossible to talk to for some reason. It's like their brains are always somewhere in space. My mom really cares but for the longest time I've always wanted to TALK to her because that's how I show that I care about someone. Through words. She's shows that she cares by providing and I have to learn to accept that. (And I am.) I am learning that my mom doesn't really know how to communicate so when she says crazy shit that offends me I'm just not going to react to it. Same with my dad for the most part but he will talk to me. It's just hard to find the time to get to him throughout his busy day. My dad never stops to relax. He's almost always working on something. And Rene'e...Renee's so hard to live with because she always thinks I'm trying to get in her way (makes no sense.) She has this superiority complex and the last time I was there I noticed that she was trying to set "ground rules" by using tactics from the DOG WHISPERER. Hahahaha! I couldn't believe it!!! I didn't say anything because I was so freaked out that she was trying to TRAIN me that I just let her do it for as long as she wanted. LMAO
Anyways, I just know that when I go home I need to be chill. Need to not freak out and get emotional. My family really doesn't read into much of anything they say or do so I can't do that either. I already feel crazy enough...don't need to dig the wounds deeper.