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Can't wait for this semester to be over. (Which it's about to be in a few weeks) THANK GOD. College isn't better or worse than I expected it to be. Just definitely not what I expected. I mean, It's been fun so far (I guess.) I can't tell if I'm just sayin' that cause I feel like I'm supposed to or if I actually mean that. Either way, it's been whatever. Only been taking two classes and the work has been easy...If only I could focus. Just want to get my prerequisites out of the way so that I can the classes that I came here for. Art stuff and what not.
What sucks though, is that even though Valencia East Campus is based in the Arts, It doesn't seem to have many photography courses. Which I guess is "okay" because I kinda just want to explore right now. But more likely than not, I'm going to pursue photography in the future.
I feel so awkward at school!!! It's not like High School where I know that I'm going to see the same people every damn day. I can't make connections as easily here. Can't count on getting a second chance to talk to the people that I see on the campus like I could at North Port. (Not that anyone ever saw me there either!!!) lol And I'm not the type to "strike up an interesting convo" with some random schmuck that I saw one time.
I've tried to make friends with some people in my classes but in all honesty, I don't think their really interested. Which I understand...their just not interested in me, or their busy. Whatever it is I'm not taking it personal. I'm just bummed. Bummed and sick of feeling isolated.
I feel like I'm turning into a cave monster. lol...like I'm turning pale and creepy from staying in my apartment so much. haha..........................duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuude. I just want to do SOMETHING. I DON'T CARE WHAT IT IS.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!????????????
DO I LOOK LIKE A FUCKING ALIEN!?
Does my eyeball twitch while I'm talking? Do I have a fucking mustache?
LOL I SINCERELY WANT TO KNOW WHY IT'S SO HARD FOR ME TO MAKE REAL FRIEND!
I can't even get a job.....
Nada. Nowhere. And I don't even want to get started on my search for a job.
I've gone to places where you'd "think" a 20 year old girl with a completely open schedule should at least get an interview, but no. I just hope I can get a job with Erin's cousin Leanna at the tanning beds. She's been really cool to help me as much as she has and I would really appreciate a job like that.
What sucks though, is that even though Valencia East Campus is based in the Arts, It doesn't seem to have many photography courses. Which I guess is "okay" because I kinda just want to explore right now. But more likely than not, I'm going to pursue photography in the future.
I feel so awkward at school!!! It's not like High School where I know that I'm going to see the same people every damn day. I can't make connections as easily here. Can't count on getting a second chance to talk to the people that I see on the campus like I could at North Port. (Not that anyone ever saw me there either!!!) lol And I'm not the type to "strike up an interesting convo" with some random schmuck that I saw one time.
I've tried to make friends with some people in my classes but in all honesty, I don't think their really interested. Which I understand...their just not interested in me, or their busy. Whatever it is I'm not taking it personal. I'm just bummed. Bummed and sick of feeling isolated.
I feel like I'm turning into a cave monster. lol...like I'm turning pale and creepy from staying in my apartment so much. haha..........................duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuude. I just want to do SOMETHING. I DON'T CARE WHAT IT IS.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!????????????
DO I LOOK LIKE A FUCKING ALIEN!?
Does my eyeball twitch while I'm talking? Do I have a fucking mustache?
LOL I SINCERELY WANT TO KNOW WHY IT'S SO HARD FOR ME TO MAKE REAL FRIEND!
I can't even get a job.....
Nada. Nowhere. And I don't even want to get started on my search for a job.
I've gone to places where you'd "think" a 20 year old girl with a completely open schedule should at least get an interview, but no. I just hope I can get a job with Erin's cousin Leanna at the tanning beds. She's been really cool to help me as much as she has and I would really appreciate a job like that.