ARGH.
So. I got into Bowdoin, which is on the face of it, is very exciting, even after getting into Dartmouth. Less exciting is that they are giving me no money. None. Zero dollars. Now before you go thinking I'm super rich, realize that my father owns his own business and for that reason they probably think we can actually afford to pay $40,000 a year. So I'm not going to Bowdoin, because there is no way I can come up with $40,000. Period.
Also, I am mad that I didn't hear from Brandeis (I'm supposed to have a two-week admission decision) and I really really really want to hear from them because Brandeis is one of the only places (other than UVM and BU) where I'd actually get merit-based scholarships, since it's one of the only places that gives them.
I kind of feel like crying, because if Bowdoin is giving me no money (and I know my FAFSA expected Family Contribution is, literally, more than $40,000,) then it is very very likely that Harvard, Yale, Williams, Brown, and Johns Hopkins will give me no money if I even get in. Damn it. Damn it.
And Dartmouth probably won't give me any money, either. And I'll end up going to UVM which wouldn't be the worst thing in the world except for the fact that I have worked my butt off and lost sleep and missed fun things and studied and studied and been in Student Council and Jazz band, and volunteered and won awards and very rarely slacked off and taken five years of French and basically put in a lot of effort for four years and it will be for nothing because I'll end up at UVM not any of the places I've dreamed of. I don't think I'm being picky here. I'd be happy to go to Wellesley or Williams or Bowdoin, none of which are that big or fancy, and I just don't want to go to UVM because, well, everyone does.
I hate this so so much. I'm not even excited about getting into Bowdoin anymore.
Sorry about the whining.
Also, I am mad that I didn't hear from Brandeis (I'm supposed to have a two-week admission decision) and I really really really want to hear from them because Brandeis is one of the only places (other than UVM and BU) where I'd actually get merit-based scholarships, since it's one of the only places that gives them.
I kind of feel like crying, because if Bowdoin is giving me no money (and I know my FAFSA expected Family Contribution is, literally, more than $40,000,) then it is very very likely that Harvard, Yale, Williams, Brown, and Johns Hopkins will give me no money if I even get in. Damn it. Damn it.
And Dartmouth probably won't give me any money, either. And I'll end up going to UVM which wouldn't be the worst thing in the world except for the fact that I have worked my butt off and lost sleep and missed fun things and studied and studied and been in Student Council and Jazz band, and volunteered and won awards and very rarely slacked off and taken five years of French and basically put in a lot of effort for four years and it will be for nothing because I'll end up at UVM not any of the places I've dreamed of. I don't think I'm being picky here. I'd be happy to go to Wellesley or Williams or Bowdoin, none of which are that big or fancy, and I just don't want to go to UVM because, well, everyone does.
I hate this so so much. I'm not even excited about getting into Bowdoin anymore.
Sorry about the whining.