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Sometimes I really fucking hate him. I mean I want to beat the living shit out of him. You know why? Because he acts like he is better than me. He acts like I haven't gone through shit because I'm okay now and that he is all stressed out and you know what? I am too! I just don't have the time to freak out like him. I'm sorry your life sucks but mines not any better and guess what, its always been like this!
I mean what the fuck? And now we have to be married if he wants to join the airforce. That or he signs all custody of lillee over to me. You know, I do love him and i am willing to get married to him sooner than I had hope but I don't want this courthouse shit like he would just to get it over with. I still want my wedding if he doesn't give a damn. And why can't he sign over custody? Because lillee is his daughter?
Lillee will always be his fucking daughter and i'm never taking her away from him but its not fucking easy being his girlfriend let alone his fucking wife. I mean its days like this that i think "he doesn't give a shit about me. Its all about him. He can't shut his fucking mouth for one second to just let me breathe." Its day like this I wish I never said "yes i will go out with you."
I mean why can't he think about what he is doing to this relationship. I'm sorry if I hurt his feelings but its gotten to the point i have to get on to him because everyone else thinks he doesn't listen to them. And they are right, he doesn't. But i hate getting on to him because he always has so much stress. I hate being the bitch but it honestly seems like I'm the one who has to care so i have to be the bitch.
Maybe I hate him so much fucking more because i love him more than any of them.
I mean what the fuck? And now we have to be married if he wants to join the airforce. That or he signs all custody of lillee over to me. You know, I do love him and i am willing to get married to him sooner than I had hope but I don't want this courthouse shit like he would just to get it over with. I still want my wedding if he doesn't give a damn. And why can't he sign over custody? Because lillee is his daughter?
Lillee will always be his fucking daughter and i'm never taking her away from him but its not fucking easy being his girlfriend let alone his fucking wife. I mean its days like this that i think "he doesn't give a shit about me. Its all about him. He can't shut his fucking mouth for one second to just let me breathe." Its day like this I wish I never said "yes i will go out with you."
I mean why can't he think about what he is doing to this relationship. I'm sorry if I hurt his feelings but its gotten to the point i have to get on to him because everyone else thinks he doesn't listen to them. And they are right, he doesn't. But i hate getting on to him because he always has so much stress. I hate being the bitch but it honestly seems like I'm the one who has to care so i have to be the bitch.
Maybe I hate him so much fucking more because i love him more than any of them.