The dream
I had a dream the other night,
Hurt me so much that i cried.
Does that make me pathetic?
To dream of him dying?
I hurt so bad the first time,
and I had to see it all again.
From the point of view,
of an innoect by-stander.
I saw him.
And he was happy.
We were talking,
We were laughing.
He said he missed me,
He said loved me.
He said he was sorry.
Then it happend all over again,
He taken from me all over again.
I felt the pain all over again.
The same look of shock and horror appeared on my face,
my heart droped instantly,
heat rushed through my body,
tears streamed down my face,
The same utter lonelness overwhelmed my soul
and a quiet scream,
muffled by my hands.
Subconciously, you think if you scream it can protect you.
Sometimes i suppose it can,
but it could not protect him.
I ran toward him, shaking and crying.
What was i supposed to do?
I had him again,
He was with me again.
What was i supposed to do?
"Its just not fair"...
"Why?"...
"I dont understand"...
"You cant understand!"...
"Go away!"...
"Dont try to help"...
"You werent there!"...
"Has it happend to you?"...
"I dont want to lose you too"...
"Dont leave me alone"...
"I love you"...
"Im Sorry"...
"We will be ok"...
"We will stick together"...
"Life is just not fair somtimes"...
"Sometimes you just have to take what life deals you and go with it, Tessa"
Dreams are meant to be happy,
Why do mine seem to only bring me darkness.
Does my subconcious need something,
something im depriving myself while concious?
I just wish i wouldnt torture me with wishful thinking,
and unhappy endings.
Hurt me so much that i cried.
Does that make me pathetic?
To dream of him dying?
I hurt so bad the first time,
and I had to see it all again.
From the point of view,
of an innoect by-stander.
I saw him.
And he was happy.
We were talking,
We were laughing.
He said he missed me,
He said loved me.
He said he was sorry.
Then it happend all over again,
He taken from me all over again.
I felt the pain all over again.
The same look of shock and horror appeared on my face,
my heart droped instantly,
heat rushed through my body,
tears streamed down my face,
The same utter lonelness overwhelmed my soul
and a quiet scream,
muffled by my hands.
Subconciously, you think if you scream it can protect you.
Sometimes i suppose it can,
but it could not protect him.
I ran toward him, shaking and crying.
What was i supposed to do?
I had him again,
He was with me again.
What was i supposed to do?
"Its just not fair"...
"Why?"...
"I dont understand"...
"You cant understand!"...
"Go away!"...
"Dont try to help"...
"You werent there!"...
"Has it happend to you?"...
"I dont want to lose you too"...
"Dont leave me alone"...
"I love you"...
"Im Sorry"...
"We will be ok"...
"We will stick together"...
"Life is just not fair somtimes"...
"Sometimes you just have to take what life deals you and go with it, Tessa"
Dreams are meant to be happy,
Why do mine seem to only bring me darkness.
Does my subconcious need something,
something im depriving myself while concious?
I just wish i wouldnt torture me with wishful thinking,
and unhappy endings.