The Fuck Up...who just keeps FUCKIN IT UP!

[teaeesesa]

Ok so im officially a fuck up..
I dont know how i do it..but i do
i fuck up everything
Or atleast thats how i feel
I feel like whenever i try to help anyone, i jsut mess it up more.
I feel like i say the wrong thing at the wrong time!
I say stupid shit all the time Which makes me look dumb as hell.. I swear i dont do it on purpose
Im better than that..
So ive been writen up 3 times this year.
Its only the 3rd month of school. WOW
Ive gotten detention 3 times.. and i have it ALL next week
I got greer in trouble. And i feel like shit
I dont know
I feel very alone.. and i dont know what will make it better. Like i know i have friends who care.. but at the same time the ones i want to care the most, ive either left, or fucked over. I dunno im being stupid as usual.
Im sick of school (jail) and failing grades
Im sick of people and their dirty looks and hurtful words
Im sick of just everything!
I want everything the way it used to be... but alas that will not come
Its like me wishing for magic powers. ITS NEVER GUNNA FUCKING HAPPIN!
But one can always hope..