my head's spinning
Whew, this week has been a long one... Last weekend was absolutely insane so this weekend is going to be spent quietly at home reading, and reading, and reading, oh and doing laundry while reading. yay, how fun....at least I will make good decisions. Not that I made bad ones laaaast weekend, but you know, they probably could have been better. haha, o well, at least it was really fun.
I was pretty proud of myself this week because I didn't skip any classes....except for one...which was geology on friday afternoon, and it was a reward for not skipping any other classes. K-dogg said it was ok....so it's ok... I also had a meeting with my advisor this week. When I left the room i felt very sick to my stomach, I am so overwhelmed by my future....anyone else? I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I mean I like things, you know, like English and photography, I even enjoy my geology classes every now and then, buuut the problem is what the hell can I do with that crap. God, it sucks....a lot. I just want to wake up one morning and have an epiphany....just know absolutely that this is what I'm supposed to be doing in life. I guess no one can ever be sure, especially me, because nothing can be easy in my life, everything that seems to be going good somehow gets a wrench thrown in there to screw everything up.
So, this weekend, I decided to go home, missed my mom and my sister, had lots to do, and I just thought it was a good time. Friday night, I went to dinner with my parents, then my mom and I went to Taylor's middle school to pick her up from yet another school dance. I drove home in silence with my mouth dropped open at the topic of conversation that my 12 year old sister and her two friends were having. I can't believe how much they know...about everything. Things that I didn't learn until my junior year in highschool, it's terrifying. It makes me scared to have children of my own. I can just imagine my 5 year old coming home from kindergarten talking about boy drama and how to give a hand job. Not that my sister knows how to give a hand job!! She doesn't, I hope...no she doesn't, but she does have plently of boy drama, and 15 yr old perverted little boys telling her that she is hot. Grrrr, it makes me angry. Anyway, I know she's smart, but I just worry about her. I worry about me too, haha. And Megan and Jenny and Elizabeth! haha....too much boy drama.
At the moment she's being good and so am I. We are watching Jessica Simpson make an ass out of herself in The Dukes of Hazard....what a great movie. Everyone knows how much I enjoy a good ole movie...it's just about my favorite thing in the world. Amuses the shit out of me. My dog is licking my arm...haha, i missed him. Almost as much as I missed molly mcbutter....i'm sure she'll be joining my in bed tonight...awww.
such a bad movie.someone save me.
I was pretty proud of myself this week because I didn't skip any classes....except for one...which was geology on friday afternoon, and it was a reward for not skipping any other classes. K-dogg said it was ok....so it's ok... I also had a meeting with my advisor this week. When I left the room i felt very sick to my stomach, I am so overwhelmed by my future....anyone else? I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I mean I like things, you know, like English and photography, I even enjoy my geology classes every now and then, buuut the problem is what the hell can I do with that crap. God, it sucks....a lot. I just want to wake up one morning and have an epiphany....just know absolutely that this is what I'm supposed to be doing in life. I guess no one can ever be sure, especially me, because nothing can be easy in my life, everything that seems to be going good somehow gets a wrench thrown in there to screw everything up.
So, this weekend, I decided to go home, missed my mom and my sister, had lots to do, and I just thought it was a good time. Friday night, I went to dinner with my parents, then my mom and I went to Taylor's middle school to pick her up from yet another school dance. I drove home in silence with my mouth dropped open at the topic of conversation that my 12 year old sister and her two friends were having. I can't believe how much they know...about everything. Things that I didn't learn until my junior year in highschool, it's terrifying. It makes me scared to have children of my own. I can just imagine my 5 year old coming home from kindergarten talking about boy drama and how to give a hand job. Not that my sister knows how to give a hand job!! She doesn't, I hope...no she doesn't, but she does have plently of boy drama, and 15 yr old perverted little boys telling her that she is hot. Grrrr, it makes me angry. Anyway, I know she's smart, but I just worry about her. I worry about me too, haha. And Megan and Jenny and Elizabeth! haha....too much boy drama.
At the moment she's being good and so am I. We are watching Jessica Simpson make an ass out of herself in The Dukes of Hazard....what a great movie. Everyone knows how much I enjoy a good ole movie...it's just about my favorite thing in the world. Amuses the shit out of me. My dog is licking my arm...haha, i missed him. Almost as much as I missed molly mcbutter....i'm sure she'll be joining my in bed tonight...awww.
such a bad movie.someone save me.