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I never thought it would be Subaru leaving the group. Really. Everyone was so sure that this was all a rumour. So so damn sure. Like the counter arguments people were saying made so much sense. I think that's part of what makes this much more sad. We had so much faith he would stay.
I'm not mad. I wouldn't say mad. Because everything Subaru said made sense. And as I have said before, I support his choice and will support him in the future because I really want him to succeed. Really and truely.
But I never wanted to see K8 without a member. Ever. I can already feel how sad watching the con dvd for Gr8est will be. I understand but I don't why it had to happen now. When so much was happening. So many good things. I wish it could have been after the tour. But thats not how it is. Maybe it would have been worse for him to wait. Maybe if he waited he would have lost his resolve and been miserable after.
Idk. It sucks. I feel kind of frustrated at it all. But that doesn't matter. What matters is that this is what he wants and that's that. No matter how sad it may be for us.
K8 was the group I listened to non stop for 8 years. I listened to them to cheer myself up when things went wrong. And I'm thankful for that but at the same time it'll never be the same listening to them. It won't bring the same joy because when his parts come up it's just like, but he's not there to sing those parts anymore. Same with watching the dvds.
I feel really, really silly for getting so sad over this. Worse things could happen. Definitely. But it's the end of something and I am terrible with change. I think about the members and what they must feel and that just makes me more sad. Because really it's hardest on them. These guys who have been so close for so many years. Who built up Kanjani8 together. Who went from the bottom to the top together. Everyone brings something to the group that no one else can replace. Now it's just like an incomplete puzzle. No one can fill that spot.
I hope the group will be fine. I don't know how my feelings would be if everyone decided to leave, as I have seen others say. It might be worse. I don't want K8 to disappear. I love all the members together. I would love them to continue to succeed. I want to keep supporting them. It's going to be odd seeing only 6 of them. But it'll be okay. They are a strong group, I think. I really love how they did the press conference. I haven't fully watched it cause I don't want to cry (oh look a tear), but I've read the translation and these are some great people. The love is there between them. And that's comforting. It's comforting that this wasn't a surprise decision.
And as I've said, I hope Subaru all the success in the world. That he can accomplish all he wants to do. That he can fulfill his dreams.
Aah. Getting it out feels good lol. I've been holding it in.
I'm not mad. I wouldn't say mad. Because everything Subaru said made sense. And as I have said before, I support his choice and will support him in the future because I really want him to succeed. Really and truely.
But I never wanted to see K8 without a member. Ever. I can already feel how sad watching the con dvd for Gr8est will be. I understand but I don't why it had to happen now. When so much was happening. So many good things. I wish it could have been after the tour. But thats not how it is. Maybe it would have been worse for him to wait. Maybe if he waited he would have lost his resolve and been miserable after.
Idk. It sucks. I feel kind of frustrated at it all. But that doesn't matter. What matters is that this is what he wants and that's that. No matter how sad it may be for us.
K8 was the group I listened to non stop for 8 years. I listened to them to cheer myself up when things went wrong. And I'm thankful for that but at the same time it'll never be the same listening to them. It won't bring the same joy because when his parts come up it's just like, but he's not there to sing those parts anymore. Same with watching the dvds.
I feel really, really silly for getting so sad over this. Worse things could happen. Definitely. But it's the end of something and I am terrible with change. I think about the members and what they must feel and that just makes me more sad. Because really it's hardest on them. These guys who have been so close for so many years. Who built up Kanjani8 together. Who went from the bottom to the top together. Everyone brings something to the group that no one else can replace. Now it's just like an incomplete puzzle. No one can fill that spot.
I hope the group will be fine. I don't know how my feelings would be if everyone decided to leave, as I have seen others say. It might be worse. I don't want K8 to disappear. I love all the members together. I would love them to continue to succeed. I want to keep supporting them. It's going to be odd seeing only 6 of them. But it'll be okay. They are a strong group, I think. I really love how they did the press conference. I haven't fully watched it cause I don't want to cry (oh look a tear), but I've read the translation and these are some great people. The love is there between them. And that's comforting. It's comforting that this wasn't a surprise decision.
And as I've said, I hope Subaru all the success in the world. That he can accomplish all he wants to do. That he can fulfill his dreams.
Aah. Getting it out feels good lol. I've been holding it in.