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So, a few years ago, like 2013 perhaps? I had this problem where I was getting really worried about things and I said the cause was from me being sick and being on so many different medicines and one of the side affects was 'nervousness'. Well I got over it and rarely had those feelings again after that until two weeks ago when I started getting sick. The first week was fine, just coughing and stuffy nose business, but when Sunday rolled around I started having those nervous feelings again, and I spent a week stuffed up with sinus issues (and I'm assuming I have a sinus infection right now, but it's clearing up and today I can actually breath pretty well haha).
But the 'nervous' or even anxiety like feelings I've been having are completely overwhelming. For some reason, though I'm only almost 22 (birthday in like 10 says woot) I'm worried about getting older. I keep thinking, oh, only a few more years of being young. Oh, only a few more years of being able to do this and that before I'm old. It's got me all out of sorts. Hell I was even worrying about what will happen when the sun goes out and how long we have until that happens. It's ridiculous. I wonder what the point of things are. And I hate feeling this way.
I think part of it has to do with the fact that I'm feeling pretty lonely right now, feeling like I'm wasting my early 20's not going out with friends and having fun like everyone else seems to be doing. The fact I can go a long time without having a conversation with 'friends'. It's gotten me pretty down lately.
Another thing I think is causing it as well is a symptom that apparently comes with many different things while you're sick. Malaise is the general feeling of unwellness (unwellness?). It can also cause you to feel depressed or have anxiety. From what I've read anyway. So I'm hoping that's what these feelings are. The anxiety. I don't feel like I'm actually depressed, despite what I said up there. I'm still relatively happy and enjoy doing things I love, I'm just extremely worried about those things. But along with this, it doesn't help that I'm not eating properly or getting enough sleep. Or exercising. Because I haven't felt well before this started DX
As for being lonely I'm working on getting rid of that by joining a Japanese Language Exchange group. Because it's something I'm interested in, and obviously, you must talk to people! I just can't at the moment cause I get out of work just as it's starting and it'll take 26 minutes to get there. I have a hard time making friends, but with this I think it'll be easier. And then, I'll get out and do things and have fun, so I think it'll help a lot.
Sorry about the long wall of text!>"<
But the 'nervous' or even anxiety like feelings I've been having are completely overwhelming. For some reason, though I'm only almost 22 (birthday in like 10 says woot) I'm worried about getting older. I keep thinking, oh, only a few more years of being young. Oh, only a few more years of being able to do this and that before I'm old. It's got me all out of sorts. Hell I was even worrying about what will happen when the sun goes out and how long we have until that happens. It's ridiculous. I wonder what the point of things are. And I hate feeling this way.
I think part of it has to do with the fact that I'm feeling pretty lonely right now, feeling like I'm wasting my early 20's not going out with friends and having fun like everyone else seems to be doing. The fact I can go a long time without having a conversation with 'friends'. It's gotten me pretty down lately.
Another thing I think is causing it as well is a symptom that apparently comes with many different things while you're sick. Malaise is the general feeling of unwellness (unwellness?). It can also cause you to feel depressed or have anxiety. From what I've read anyway. So I'm hoping that's what these feelings are. The anxiety. I don't feel like I'm actually depressed, despite what I said up there. I'm still relatively happy and enjoy doing things I love, I'm just extremely worried about those things. But along with this, it doesn't help that I'm not eating properly or getting enough sleep. Or exercising. Because I haven't felt well before this started DX
As for being lonely I'm working on getting rid of that by joining a Japanese Language Exchange group. Because it's something I'm interested in, and obviously, you must talk to people! I just can't at the moment cause I get out of work just as it's starting and it'll take 26 minutes to get there. I have a hard time making friends, but with this I think it'll be easier. And then, I'll get out and do things and have fun, so I think it'll help a lot.
Sorry about the long wall of text!>"<