Blunt truth about today
I'm not happy. Floating but not happy. Just spent eight hours answering to people that are younger than some of my underwear. When I was young, I wanted to be Ronald Reagan. Never did any illegal drugs. Hated the idea of stating, "I did not inhale," so I didn't. Kept my love and social life sober and upfront. Went to school for theater and political science. Right now I am a second class bastard stepchild for a badly run food joint. Go figure. I have 12 years before I could run for president and no political future to speak of. I love the woman I am with. I respect her and would enjoy spending the rest of my life with her. Like the pets, when they are not pissing on the carpet/furniture/clothing. Live in a nice place for what it is, when I get around to cleaning it a bit. Today I am nowhere near where I want to be on any front and I see few options to get there. I live the dreams I threw away through my family and friends. I see the first half of my life as a loss so nothing but up from here. Maybe someday. It wasn't today. Depressed? No. Pissed of is more like it. Oh and I smoked 7 cigarettes today. I am supposed to be quitting but I needed my crutch while working today and puffed away. The honey in the back room is gonna be pissed about that. Fuck it. Tomorrow is another day.