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i don't know why i always have the sad entries
last night i found out my godfather/uncle died. we weren't exactly on speaking terms. which makes this situation even worse. i said pretty terrible things and now... its really hard.
my dads in portugal because he is staying with his momma because she is having some kind of surgery done... so he had to break the news to my mom's parents this morning. my grandfather, (mom's dad) just had heart surgery so i'm scared to how he is handling this.
i think the wake is this weekend. they are going to fly him over to portugal on tuesday i think. i think my mom is going with him. so the four of us kids are going to be home to fend for ourselves.
my mom has been with my other uncle and my aunt all day to make wake and funeral plans. my mom has never had to do this before. its weird
my family from like all over the world has been calling... some family from jersey are going to stop by tomorrow... so we're like having a famliy reunion... but for the wrong reason...
good news... my cousins from germany called... they finished the sugery with my cousin... hes all good. i guess the next job is to get him a prostetic leg.
this year has been really shitty.... like... so many people have died in this past year that were one way or another really important to me. i feel like when i go back to portugal... it won't be the same. yesterday morning my dad called home and told us that one of our cousin's dad died too. wtf is up with 2005? i hate it.
i really don't think i could handle any more stress. i'm going crazy. to top it all of... i got crazy tests i'm supposed to be studing for...
blah! ok... it felt good to get that all out... i just have to get through this weekend. after that... i can start to get back on track.
<<<<333 i love you guys all. be good. don't be mad at people too long.... forgive and forget. its the least we can do. be happy. and tell people that you love.... that you love them. tell them everyday.
i love you
<3 diana
last night i found out my godfather/uncle died. we weren't exactly on speaking terms. which makes this situation even worse. i said pretty terrible things and now... its really hard.
my dads in portugal because he is staying with his momma because she is having some kind of surgery done... so he had to break the news to my mom's parents this morning. my grandfather, (mom's dad) just had heart surgery so i'm scared to how he is handling this.
i think the wake is this weekend. they are going to fly him over to portugal on tuesday i think. i think my mom is going with him. so the four of us kids are going to be home to fend for ourselves.
my mom has been with my other uncle and my aunt all day to make wake and funeral plans. my mom has never had to do this before. its weird
my family from like all over the world has been calling... some family from jersey are going to stop by tomorrow... so we're like having a famliy reunion... but for the wrong reason...
good news... my cousins from germany called... they finished the sugery with my cousin... hes all good. i guess the next job is to get him a prostetic leg.
this year has been really shitty.... like... so many people have died in this past year that were one way or another really important to me. i feel like when i go back to portugal... it won't be the same. yesterday morning my dad called home and told us that one of our cousin's dad died too. wtf is up with 2005? i hate it.
i really don't think i could handle any more stress. i'm going crazy. to top it all of... i got crazy tests i'm supposed to be studing for...
blah! ok... it felt good to get that all out... i just have to get through this weekend. after that... i can start to get back on track.
<<<<333 i love you guys all. be good. don't be mad at people too long.... forgive and forget. its the least we can do. be happy. and tell people that you love.... that you love them. tell them everyday.
i love you
<3 diana