NEVER EVER take friends for granted!!!
so this week has definatly been interesting. on tuesday night, my dad gets a call saying that one of our youth group boys had been killed in a car wreck out by celina. if thats not bad enough, he had a girlfriend and they'd just had a baby named shelby. i knew casey(the boy who was killed) because he came on several trips. he and alex(his girlfriend) hadn't come in awhile to church prolly b/c of their new baby. casey was a sr. in high school and we think alex is a jr. casey's car ran into an excursion(sp), a REALLY big car and their car was a corolla, a REALLY small car. it was heard that the front part of their car was in casey and he had tried to shield his face and there was stuff all in his hand. alex is fine and so is the baby, but alex has something broken in her foot and has scratches and bruises everywhere. i don't really know what to type b/c it STILL hasn't sunk in yet that he's dead even though the funeral was today and i cried my eyes out. my dad and our preacher john were the ones who did the funeral and about 5 min b4 it started, my dad still didn't have anything written down b/c he had absolutly no clue what to say. several of us teens and a few adults crowded into his office and prayed for him and he did an AWESOME job. it was definatly God doing the talking b/c he doesn't even remember what he said. it was so sad b/c alex hadn't even seen casey yet b/c she'd been in the hospital and was lucky to come see the funeral. she hadn't seen him at all since the accident and they didn't tell her he died until she went into surgery that tues. night. they're not real sure what caused the accident which i'm sure alot of people want to know. it sucked major b/c being the youth ministers daughter, i had to be the one to call the youth group and let them know and thats SUCH a hard thing to do. casey was an awesome guy who loved to make everyone laugh. i feel so guilty b/c i always thought that he was annoying and a very big pest and now that he's gone, i totally regret not getting to know him better and i miss him. when louie died, i regreted not getting to know him better and now its pretty much the same situation but i got to see casey alot more than louie so it makes me feel more guilty. i'd have to say the hardest part of the funeral was when alex was rolled down the aisle in her wheelchair and she was bawling and so that made everyone bawl. i dunno. i'm sry if this entry sounds like a bunch of jumbled up words but honestly, how do you describe something like this? you pretty much can't thats the thing. i just miss him so much and i want you all who read this to read the subject line b/c its times like this that make that so true. don't ever take anyone for granted b/c they're not guaranteed to be here tomorrow. i got pissed at my parents yesterday for something stupid and i apologized soon after b/c i realized that if they were to go somewhere randomly, they're not guaranteed to come back so i had to be left on good terms. well sry to make you read this all i just needed to vent. its so hard when someone dies, especially someone you know on a personal level. alright well i hope everyone is having a good break. i'd just like to ask you all to please pray for casey's family b/c they're not taking it well at all. thanks...bye!