Guys=Bad
Man. Honestly. Why does all the bad guy stuff come to me? I've never had a boyfriend or even my first kiss for that matter. And when I actually find a guy, a guy I've liked for a long time and almost went out with before but didn't because I couldn't date...and he likes me back, I'm excited. Things were going good. They really were. But I knew it was too good to be true. He had to go and like my best friend. Still. That's always how it turns out right? Well in my life it does. I know everyone says oh it doesn't take guys to make you happy but why can't I find out? Why? I want my first boyfriend. I want my first kiss. Is that to much to ask? I guess so because it's not going to happen anytime soon. Or at all for that matter. I get my hopes up everytime this happens, can't I just learn? WHY ME??? I'm always the one who's there for everyone else, saying I'm going to pray for them but what can I do this time? Nothing that's for sure. I look at all these girls, on Topcats especially who are sooooooo happy with their boyfriends and don't think I'm not happy for you because I am I swear. It just frustrates me b/c I want that. I want some experience at least. But can I get any? Obviously not. It's not fair. Life's not fair. No one said it would be easy but why does it always have to be so hard? Just when everything's going great, or so I think, a bombshell has to be dropped. RIGHT ON ME EVERY FREAKING TIME!! I know I know. Guys are dumb right? Well right of course but can't I find one thats not? O well. It's not the first time I've been through this and I'm pretty sure it's not going to be the last.