and this is how i choose to live, as if i'm jumping off a cliff...
i miss being little. i want to go back to the days of my innocent youth... :) i have talked to a bunch of different people about that this week, and it completely bites that, as we grow up, we loose our confidence in the world around us. we loose the ability to be so sure of everything we know. like Inherit the Wind... i was talking to chris and he pointed out that it was so easy when we were younger to just believe that the world was created in seven days and that was it. bam. earth. no evolution or dinosaurs or micro versus macro evolution. now i feel like i have to have a reason for everything i believe or else someone can rip my faith to shreds. ben franklin said "it is hard for an empty bag to stand upright." and it's true. i put so much pressure on myself to have a strong faith in what i believe in because without it, where am i? what will i accomplish if i dont have a position? i'm not saying i'm a complete creationist or evolutionist, but i feel like i need to have SOME opinion. even though i know i dont have to. kids dont have to, and look where jesus placed them in worth. so maybe it's a good thing that i act immature and childlike sometimes... :)
ok, i think i am done with that little... thing. BUT, in other news i had my cary youth leadership interview today... that went... not good, i dont think. but, hey, its all relative, right? i mean, they HAVE to choose ten kids, and if everyone else sucked worse than i did, then i'm in! right...
first timed writing in AP english. stressful? yes. hard? yes. painful? only in my lower abdomen. feel horrible about it? NO. i actually feel pretty O.K. with what i wrote. O.K., mind you, not brilliant.
i hate Uta Hagen, for the time being.
there was a thespian meeting right after school, and i was STARVING, no, RAVENOUS by 2:00, so, thinking that i would be at school until 5:00, jill and i sent austin to bojangles. well, after the thespian meeting, i'm chilling in the auditorium and koechling is like, we don't need you. so now i feel guilty for eating bo's. :( oh well. i got to come home early...
but, before i was picked up from school, i ran into the FABULOUS katie nashland. might i just say that she is my one true love? that girl brings out my most immature and crazy and silly and psycho side. i found out that cars have crushes, too. duh.
i watched lost when i got home. i taped it last night, and WHOA. i love that show, except the excessive commercials. those are not necessary at all. not at all.
now i'm here. typing. and that's it. so have a loverly day beauties! (and handsomes?)
... knowing that you'll save me, knowing that you'll save me
after all the stupid things i did, there's nothing left but to forgive
but you already forgave me, you already forgave me.
never forget, theres life after death, and taxes.
ok, i think i am done with that little... thing. BUT, in other news i had my cary youth leadership interview today... that went... not good, i dont think. but, hey, its all relative, right? i mean, they HAVE to choose ten kids, and if everyone else sucked worse than i did, then i'm in! right...
first timed writing in AP english. stressful? yes. hard? yes. painful? only in my lower abdomen. feel horrible about it? NO. i actually feel pretty O.K. with what i wrote. O.K., mind you, not brilliant.
i hate Uta Hagen, for the time being.
there was a thespian meeting right after school, and i was STARVING, no, RAVENOUS by 2:00, so, thinking that i would be at school until 5:00, jill and i sent austin to bojangles. well, after the thespian meeting, i'm chilling in the auditorium and koechling is like, we don't need you. so now i feel guilty for eating bo's. :( oh well. i got to come home early...
but, before i was picked up from school, i ran into the FABULOUS katie nashland. might i just say that she is my one true love? that girl brings out my most immature and crazy and silly and psycho side. i found out that cars have crushes, too. duh.
i watched lost when i got home. i taped it last night, and WHOA. i love that show, except the excessive commercials. those are not necessary at all. not at all.
now i'm here. typing. and that's it. so have a loverly day beauties! (and handsomes?)
... knowing that you'll save me, knowing that you'll save me
after all the stupid things i did, there's nothing left but to forgive
but you already forgave me, you already forgave me.
never forget, theres life after death, and taxes.