Burnt out
Don't remember last update, but....
The boy had a crisis in his family. I was there for him. Cost me a lot of sleep and time, but, worth it if it made him feel the slightest bit better. And, I like him. A lot. Which is pissing me off (because hello, it's me). And, he leaves tomorrow which is just stupid. Especially since he will constantly be on ships for months at a time! Then again, it is me and this might be just what I need.....Went bowling with him and friends Monday night and otherwise we spend time watching basketball (and me acting psychotic as I watch it) and tomorrow we are going out to a fancy restaurant for lunch before he leaves:(
Thursday went to Mt. Pleasant for George's funeral. Very sad. Saw Ryan for a couple minutes. Everyone of the "old crew" was very happy that I made it. Then after wards Ron, Patrick, Rachael and I went to the park and walked around for a while. Went and had dinner at (old) work and then left because I wanted to get back and spend time with the boy but ended up falling asleep instead. Oh well.
Worked today for graduation. It was actually nice and my boss wasn't too much of a beast. We got into it Wednesday night.
Very confused on what to do as far as my job goes. What should I honestly be taking into consideration and what am I being stupid about? Do I even put this boy into any sort of plan, even if just in the back of my mind? I'm thinking no....but I'm thinking it creeps me out how 1 - much fun we have together 2 - good he is to me 3 - much we have in common. And then of course there is the obvious "triangle" that I am more than sick of contemplating. And the fact that while I love to get away and do it on my own and for myself I need to be near my family and friends. So I'm very torn right now. Very.
The wedding plans for Gina and Kurt are moving along nicely. The time is now in place and a pastor has been selected. They are in their new place together and things are going good for them. Dress fittings soon....
Annoyed with certain people. But then I get over it when I realize what kind of friend I am half the time. Actually, I've been a really good friend lately.
That's all. I think I want some Subway. I haven't eaten in almost four days now and got kind of sick last night I think because of that. And I want to do some laundry, call my mom/sister and do a few other things. And, I'm sleepy from staying up all night. I really hate distance. And, I miss my best friend.
The boy had a crisis in his family. I was there for him. Cost me a lot of sleep and time, but, worth it if it made him feel the slightest bit better. And, I like him. A lot. Which is pissing me off (because hello, it's me). And, he leaves tomorrow which is just stupid. Especially since he will constantly be on ships for months at a time! Then again, it is me and this might be just what I need.....Went bowling with him and friends Monday night and otherwise we spend time watching basketball (and me acting psychotic as I watch it) and tomorrow we are going out to a fancy restaurant for lunch before he leaves:(
Thursday went to Mt. Pleasant for George's funeral. Very sad. Saw Ryan for a couple minutes. Everyone of the "old crew" was very happy that I made it. Then after wards Ron, Patrick, Rachael and I went to the park and walked around for a while. Went and had dinner at (old) work and then left because I wanted to get back and spend time with the boy but ended up falling asleep instead. Oh well.
Worked today for graduation. It was actually nice and my boss wasn't too much of a beast. We got into it Wednesday night.
Very confused on what to do as far as my job goes. What should I honestly be taking into consideration and what am I being stupid about? Do I even put this boy into any sort of plan, even if just in the back of my mind? I'm thinking no....but I'm thinking it creeps me out how 1 - much fun we have together 2 - good he is to me 3 - much we have in common. And then of course there is the obvious "triangle" that I am more than sick of contemplating. And the fact that while I love to get away and do it on my own and for myself I need to be near my family and friends. So I'm very torn right now. Very.
The wedding plans for Gina and Kurt are moving along nicely. The time is now in place and a pastor has been selected. They are in their new place together and things are going good for them. Dress fittings soon....
Annoyed with certain people. But then I get over it when I realize what kind of friend I am half the time. Actually, I've been a really good friend lately.
That's all. I think I want some Subway. I haven't eaten in almost four days now and got kind of sick last night I think because of that. And I want to do some laundry, call my mom/sister and do a few other things. And, I'm sleepy from staying up all night. I really hate distance. And, I miss my best friend.