I hear Baghdad is beautiful this time of year
I'm honestly to tired to blog right now. I just woke up [lucky me] and my head is sorta in the clouds at the moment. So for me to put a concret thought together will be short of a mirical. Well actually, me putting two thoughts together that make sense is pretty much an act of god ^_^
My deductive reasoning is a little bit scewed. But I think I'm leading on the expectations this if I get the little things done, the big things will come togther. Lets hope my fical behavior just doesn't get in the way.
What's been bothering me latley
- My focus
- My resolve
-(Resolve+Discipline)-Attitude = Achievement
I have developed a theory as of late: My enviroment effects me greatly! I have learned that I have a strong "bandwagon" mentality. AKA pretty low self-esteem. Now, I'm not sure exatly where this little devil manifested itself. I think I notice it showing up in my dancing. Don't get me wrong I'm still quite the upbeat induvidual. But I'm getting faster at conforming to were I am, instead of reaching for what I wish, especially when I'm not getting what I want. Maybe I'm sick of when asking for oranges to make orange juice, I recieve lemons, and making lemon murang pie...
[side note] Maybe it's only common with me, but does anyone else get the feeling that when they have high self-esteem they blame other people, and when they have low self-esteem they blame themselves? What if you don't want to blame anyone at all?
I hear the voices in my head. seriously not the scary kind. But the ones left by those you have trusted: Friends, Family, and loved ones; they ring lound. But they begin to conflict with each other at a certian point. If a whole is only the sum of it's parts, when it's parts have become equal in value, an error is bound to occur. Hence "...me putting two thoughts together that make sense is pretty much an act of god ^_^"
My deductive reasoning is a little bit scewed. But I think I'm leading on the expectations this if I get the little things done, the big things will come togther. Lets hope my fical behavior just doesn't get in the way.
What's been bothering me latley
- My focus
- My resolve
-(Resolve+Discipline)-Attitude = Achievement
I have developed a theory as of late: My enviroment effects me greatly! I have learned that I have a strong "bandwagon" mentality. AKA pretty low self-esteem. Now, I'm not sure exatly where this little devil manifested itself. I think I notice it showing up in my dancing. Don't get me wrong I'm still quite the upbeat induvidual. But I'm getting faster at conforming to were I am, instead of reaching for what I wish, especially when I'm not getting what I want. Maybe I'm sick of when asking for oranges to make orange juice, I recieve lemons, and making lemon murang pie...
[side note] Maybe it's only common with me, but does anyone else get the feeling that when they have high self-esteem they blame other people, and when they have low self-esteem they blame themselves? What if you don't want to blame anyone at all?
I hear the voices in my head. seriously not the scary kind. But the ones left by those you have trusted: Friends, Family, and loved ones; they ring lound. But they begin to conflict with each other at a certian point. If a whole is only the sum of it's parts, when it's parts have become equal in value, an error is bound to occur. Hence "...me putting two thoughts together that make sense is pretty much an act of god ^_^"