this feeling...
i dont know what it is, when exactly it started or what it means... no particular music spurs it, no character or story or idea or event seems to be causing it, no emotion seems to connect with it.... i dont understand it, and its driving me crazy. its like my heart flutters for nothing, like i need something but i dont know what, like theres something inside me that needs to be let out but doesnt know how or why..... its confusing and frustrating and intriguing and troublesome... and all things wrapped into a package i cant understand or interpret... its getting stronger, im not going to get to sleep easy tonight if it keeps this up... i keep trying to find if i need to process some idea or scene in my head, some sensation or character moment i need to extrapolate.... it doesnt have a spin, positive, negative, happy, sad, but it makes me want to run around in circles until i figure it out... just a heaviness, an anticipation, a sense of something not quite right.......
am i crazy? can i not make this go away?
ive been skipping music on my launchcast radio all evening, nothing sounds right... i logged into ffxi, didnt wanna bother with besieged when i was actually in al zhabi for once, nabbed a skillup party after watching the shouts for 10 mins, did that for a while, party broke and i sat around like a lump with no clue what to do or where to go... got my chocobo egg started, that didnt help.... logged off because i couldnt stand to sit around and do nothing, but anything i proposed to myself sounded uninteresting or like itd be a waste of time... now ive been puttering around, downloaded two amvs, stared at my screen, got up, wandered around, thought a little about joe's new powers game, thought a little about a character i want to play in it, sat down again, stared at the screen like a dog who cant eat anymore staring at the full food dish and whining because he cant eat.... thats a terrible reference, ugly, but i cant help but feel like theres something i should be doing, but i cant, but i dont know what to do....
frou frou is in my head and i cant make it stop... let go, let go.......
am i crazy? can i not make this go away?
ive been skipping music on my launchcast radio all evening, nothing sounds right... i logged into ffxi, didnt wanna bother with besieged when i was actually in al zhabi for once, nabbed a skillup party after watching the shouts for 10 mins, did that for a while, party broke and i sat around like a lump with no clue what to do or where to go... got my chocobo egg started, that didnt help.... logged off because i couldnt stand to sit around and do nothing, but anything i proposed to myself sounded uninteresting or like itd be a waste of time... now ive been puttering around, downloaded two amvs, stared at my screen, got up, wandered around, thought a little about joe's new powers game, thought a little about a character i want to play in it, sat down again, stared at the screen like a dog who cant eat anymore staring at the full food dish and whining because he cant eat.... thats a terrible reference, ugly, but i cant help but feel like theres something i should be doing, but i cant, but i dont know what to do....
frou frou is in my head and i cant make it stop... let go, let go.......