China by way of What The Fuck, Part 5. End of Prologue
Do not only practice your art,
but force your way into it's secrets.
For it and knowledge can raise men to the Divine.
- Ludwig von Beethoven
It's currently 4:12 in the morning. I haven't slept a bit tonight. Been too busy packing up the final things, transferring files off of the desktop and onto the poor little laptop that will do me service for a short time until I can do something better. I'm terrified to leave, but ready to go. I leave for the airport in three hours, and it's both not soon enough, and not nearly enough time to do everything I want to before I leave.
So much of the last few months has been leading up to this morning, and now that it's here... I can see how I've made mistakes, but also done some of it right. I just have to hope the good parts outweigh the bad, and carry on. I've got everything ready. My flights are setup as good as they can be, I've got my passport, ID, and all my documents in a little case that I can hang on my neck. I've got some books, some drawing materials...
I'm going to miss a lot of my friends. Even though there are some that I never get to see in person... it's not the same when you're half way around the world from them. It makes me realize how alone I make myself some times. I don't want to deal with that anymore. I'm going to make a big effort to keep in touch with everyone as much as I can while I'm in China. I'll be posting my mailing address in a post once I get it. You can send me letters and care packages if you so care. I know a few people read this, and at least one of you comments. :P
I look around my room here, and I see a lot of time I spent here. Good and bad, I hate to leave it behind. I have a lot of friends here, more than I thought I would have made... but they'll still be here when I get back I hope. Right now, I intend to return with a hell of an experience, and a lot of good stories to tell. What I do when I get back is still in the air. But I really want to go back to school full time and finish what I started. I should have done that two years ago. But life interfered (again.)... sometimes I know that I'm being pushed towards something, the situation that brought me to this point is too crazy otherwise.
So here goes the next chapter in my stupidly crazy life... I'll keep you all abreast of it, as long as LJ doesn't give me issues over there (and even if it does, I have my ways.) I'll post again once I get settled, sometime over the weekend.
So, in closing... I refer to the good Doctor. (and credit of course to the artist.)\
The Doctor: There's an old Earth saying, Captain. A phrase of great power and wisdom and consolation to the soul in times of need.
Addams: What's that then?
The Doctor: Allons-y!
but force your way into it's secrets.
For it and knowledge can raise men to the Divine.
- Ludwig von Beethoven
It's currently 4:12 in the morning. I haven't slept a bit tonight. Been too busy packing up the final things, transferring files off of the desktop and onto the poor little laptop that will do me service for a short time until I can do something better. I'm terrified to leave, but ready to go. I leave for the airport in three hours, and it's both not soon enough, and not nearly enough time to do everything I want to before I leave.
So much of the last few months has been leading up to this morning, and now that it's here... I can see how I've made mistakes, but also done some of it right. I just have to hope the good parts outweigh the bad, and carry on. I've got everything ready. My flights are setup as good as they can be, I've got my passport, ID, and all my documents in a little case that I can hang on my neck. I've got some books, some drawing materials...
I'm going to miss a lot of my friends. Even though there are some that I never get to see in person... it's not the same when you're half way around the world from them. It makes me realize how alone I make myself some times. I don't want to deal with that anymore. I'm going to make a big effort to keep in touch with everyone as much as I can while I'm in China. I'll be posting my mailing address in a post once I get it. You can send me letters and care packages if you so care. I know a few people read this, and at least one of you comments. :P
I look around my room here, and I see a lot of time I spent here. Good and bad, I hate to leave it behind. I have a lot of friends here, more than I thought I would have made... but they'll still be here when I get back I hope. Right now, I intend to return with a hell of an experience, and a lot of good stories to tell. What I do when I get back is still in the air. But I really want to go back to school full time and finish what I started. I should have done that two years ago. But life interfered (again.)... sometimes I know that I'm being pushed towards something, the situation that brought me to this point is too crazy otherwise.
So here goes the next chapter in my stupidly crazy life... I'll keep you all abreast of it, as long as LJ doesn't give me issues over there (and even if it does, I have my ways.) I'll post again once I get settled, sometime over the weekend.
So, in closing... I refer to the good Doctor. (and credit of course to the artist.)\
The Doctor: There's an old Earth saying, Captain. A phrase of great power and wisdom and consolation to the soul in times of need.
Addams: What's that then?
The Doctor: Allons-y!