Music my dear friend...
So today has been a pretty good day. Lunch with Christina, downloading music, some reading, etc, I'll probably go to Dustin's new restaurant tonight. He opened a pizza place where Cici's used to be and they said it's much better so I'll try it out.
As to my post the other night. Well, first of all it's been a while since my last post. I haven't written anything online since before I moved into my new apartment. It's quite nice actually, having my own space. Life for the most part is average. I've got a lot of things that I've wanted for a long time and I'm independent now which is such an intense feeling. It's great in the fact that I'm making it on my own and that there's really no one I have to answer to for once i my life (well, other than the bill companies and the Army but let's overlook that).
It's very scary at the same time if only for the fact that I'm terrified of not making it. I got some bills in the mail the other day and had kind of a mini panic attack just because I'm not getting all of my military benefits yet because of the point in my IST and it worried me for a while. I think I'll be ok though.
This happened over the weekend in which I was stressed anyway with being at drill. I love drill but I felt so horrible when I fell asleep and was supposed to meet with and hang out with Mari and Nate. I'm a bad friend and I really am lucky to have people in my life (such as Nate and Mari) who like me anyway (or well, most of the time I think =) ).
And then things are going kinda rough with a particular person in Abilene right now. I mean, it's not that there's a lack of attraction, happiness, or love. But it's just hard sometimes. I know that want she wants should be the most important thing and I don't want to get in the way of that. But at the same time, I do have feelings for her, and while I know she has feelings for me, it doesn't make it any easier (or my understanding any more clairvoyant, But I'm not the brightest person either).
All in all it was kind of a shitty day the other day. It kind of picked up at work because it was just a fun night. That and MORGAN came into town and came to eat in my section so that was fun. She was with her her hubby and her younger/bigger brother. After work I met with George and Christina (old church friends) for a quick mooch session at Texas Road house and came back to the apartment to get Jon and we went to the bowling alley for a little while to see Morgan. Morgan and Keith were leaving by the time we got there, but Carissa and Jason were there (new people at work) so we bowled with them and then went to Jason's for a while and laughed at episodes of Will and Grace (which I've never seen). They're both fun and Jason's a gay guy that isn't whore-ish like so many other gay people here.
So the day ended on a little bit brighter note and today was a decent day so I suppose I can be thankful. I'm really confused at the moment. Actually, no. Bad word choice. Ever get bogged down with enough stuff that your brain feels bloated but there's not enough stress that it breaks down? That's kinda how I feel right now. I should do some breathing exercises later tonight. Oh, and Jon makes me laugh. I really do like my roommate!
As to my post the other night. Well, first of all it's been a while since my last post. I haven't written anything online since before I moved into my new apartment. It's quite nice actually, having my own space. Life for the most part is average. I've got a lot of things that I've wanted for a long time and I'm independent now which is such an intense feeling. It's great in the fact that I'm making it on my own and that there's really no one I have to answer to for once i my life (well, other than the bill companies and the Army but let's overlook that).
It's very scary at the same time if only for the fact that I'm terrified of not making it. I got some bills in the mail the other day and had kind of a mini panic attack just because I'm not getting all of my military benefits yet because of the point in my IST and it worried me for a while. I think I'll be ok though.
This happened over the weekend in which I was stressed anyway with being at drill. I love drill but I felt so horrible when I fell asleep and was supposed to meet with and hang out with Mari and Nate. I'm a bad friend and I really am lucky to have people in my life (such as Nate and Mari) who like me anyway (or well, most of the time I think =) ).
And then things are going kinda rough with a particular person in Abilene right now. I mean, it's not that there's a lack of attraction, happiness, or love. But it's just hard sometimes. I know that want she wants should be the most important thing and I don't want to get in the way of that. But at the same time, I do have feelings for her, and while I know she has feelings for me, it doesn't make it any easier (or my understanding any more clairvoyant, But I'm not the brightest person either).
All in all it was kind of a shitty day the other day. It kind of picked up at work because it was just a fun night. That and MORGAN came into town and came to eat in my section so that was fun. She was with her her hubby and her younger/bigger brother. After work I met with George and Christina (old church friends) for a quick mooch session at Texas Road house and came back to the apartment to get Jon and we went to the bowling alley for a little while to see Morgan. Morgan and Keith were leaving by the time we got there, but Carissa and Jason were there (new people at work) so we bowled with them and then went to Jason's for a while and laughed at episodes of Will and Grace (which I've never seen). They're both fun and Jason's a gay guy that isn't whore-ish like so many other gay people here.
So the day ended on a little bit brighter note and today was a decent day so I suppose I can be thankful. I'm really confused at the moment. Actually, no. Bad word choice. Ever get bogged down with enough stuff that your brain feels bloated but there's not enough stress that it breaks down? That's kinda how I feel right now. I should do some breathing exercises later tonight. Oh, and Jon makes me laugh. I really do like my roommate!