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I've had it.
I've never felt so alone.
I miss history... long standing relationships....
Even my dearest of friends are new-be's
I am sick.
Sick of her.
Sick of myself.
Lacking a spine.
About ready to call it quits.
Tonight was horrible.
She pretty much ignored me tonight, much like last.
Then when I was leaving... I asked her... "So we are really broken up"
she replied... rather annoyed... "Yes, Nik, we are really broken up"...
Very unlike us... to ACTUALLY be broken up.
THEN... after that.... hours later she calls me because she is at a hotel with two couples and she feels like a 5th wheel... then she wants me to come and get her and take her to delray to an empty house she is house sitting....
15 mins later- I call her... she doesn't want to go, is playing indoor baseball? and is staying there for the night....
I'M A FUCKING LOSER! I was right there when she wanted me.... for five minutes when she felt all alone and ignored... and I was still right there when she decided she didn't need me anymore... just slightly bruised and broken hearted.
I'm a fool.
David, if you are reading this... I'm sorry...
I know I know... I need to learn my fucking lesson already.
Feel free to ignore this... I can't ask you or anyone else for that matter to give a shit any longer.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK ME!!!!
AH!
Gnight.
I've never felt so alone.
I miss history... long standing relationships....
Even my dearest of friends are new-be's
I am sick.
Sick of her.
Sick of myself.
Lacking a spine.
About ready to call it quits.
Tonight was horrible.
She pretty much ignored me tonight, much like last.
Then when I was leaving... I asked her... "So we are really broken up"
she replied... rather annoyed... "Yes, Nik, we are really broken up"...
Very unlike us... to ACTUALLY be broken up.
THEN... after that.... hours later she calls me because she is at a hotel with two couples and she feels like a 5th wheel... then she wants me to come and get her and take her to delray to an empty house she is house sitting....
15 mins later- I call her... she doesn't want to go, is playing indoor baseball? and is staying there for the night....
I'M A FUCKING LOSER! I was right there when she wanted me.... for five minutes when she felt all alone and ignored... and I was still right there when she decided she didn't need me anymore... just slightly bruised and broken hearted.
I'm a fool.
David, if you are reading this... I'm sorry...
I know I know... I need to learn my fucking lesson already.
Feel free to ignore this... I can't ask you or anyone else for that matter to give a shit any longer.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK ME!!!!
AH!
Gnight.