Another rambling post...
Yeah, this is gonna be another rambling post about Orson Scott Card and how he writes...
I just read another couple of chapters of Prentice Alvin, and OMG, every time I read, I end up crying...and I think I finally figured out how to explain why. When OSC writes, his books, they have strong plots, sometimes convoluted plots, but he writes characters. There's no plot narrative at all, it's ALL character narrative. He tells the plot THROUGH the characters, which is why it's so amazing and realistic and touching, because THAT'S HOW THINGS HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE. All the plots in the real world happen through people...people's perceptions, people's choices, people's wants and needs and hopes and desires and decisions and anything possible for people to have and do...but it's all through people. And that's how OSC writes it. That's why I feel (and I think other people do too) SO incredibly connected to what he writes, to the feelings and thoughts he describes. Because they're real, they're how real people think and feel and do things, and interact, and how complex those interactions become and the effects that has on the plot, on the world, on the way things are.
OSC is the master. The master of writing humanity. He better not be a Sith lord in disguise, lol, cuz if he is, I'll get seduced to the dark side like THAT! ;) I think I'm a little too obsessed with Star Wars Episode III, haha, even though I don't even think I can watch it again, because it disturbed me SO much the first time. I mean, I saw it almost a month ago, and I'm just now starting to get over it. Movies don't usually affect me consistently for that long. I'm like hyper-conscious now of where my vulnerabilities are, and concentrating on not letting them twist me to the dark side (I know The Force is a made up concept, but honestly, some aspects of it are definitely based in reality), because it's SUCH a fine line sometimes. If you've seen Episode III, you probably have a pretty good idea of what I'm talking about. If not, don't worry about it, lol, it's more of something for me to worry about internally than something that's important for everybody to know.
You know how the first step to fixing a problem is admitting that there is a problem? LOL, well, I've realized lately that, if I'm still really bad at controlling my mind, I now can at least recognize when it's doing something it shouldn't be doing, and what it's doing. I can tell when my mind is running wildly out of control (I didn't used to be able to recognize that all the time), I can tell when I'm being totally illogical, I can tell when I'm obsessing and worrying too much, I can tell when I'm overthinking or overanalyzing things...so I've got the recognition part down. Hopefully that's a step on the road to being able to STOP doing those things, lol...sometimes I can keep it down to a manageable level (like right now), and sometimes I still can't...but at least I recognize it now. And I know to shut myself off and not expose other people to me when I'm not in control of it. Which totally sucks, because usually when I get like that, the only thing I want is to talk to people and figure stuff out, but I really shouldn't when I'm like that, haha, cuz it doesn't tend to produce very good results :-P
But anyway, as depressing as THAT all sounded, lol, I'm actually in a really good mood still, which is nice, it's been a while since I was in a good mood for this long! Camp starts on Monday, and I totally can't wait, I LOVE CAMP! And Pearl's coming up to DC on the 28th, so I'm uber-excited about that too! And the new Harry Potter book comes out July 16th...LOL, I'm SO obsessed with Harry Potter right now, seriously! And July 4th is a Monday, which means THREE DAY WEEKEND! I don't know why I'm excited about that, since I like camp so much, haha, but I do love the fireworks, and it's nice to have 3 days to sleep in instead of only 2 :)
I just read another couple of chapters of Prentice Alvin, and OMG, every time I read, I end up crying...and I think I finally figured out how to explain why. When OSC writes, his books, they have strong plots, sometimes convoluted plots, but he writes characters. There's no plot narrative at all, it's ALL character narrative. He tells the plot THROUGH the characters, which is why it's so amazing and realistic and touching, because THAT'S HOW THINGS HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE. All the plots in the real world happen through people...people's perceptions, people's choices, people's wants and needs and hopes and desires and decisions and anything possible for people to have and do...but it's all through people. And that's how OSC writes it. That's why I feel (and I think other people do too) SO incredibly connected to what he writes, to the feelings and thoughts he describes. Because they're real, they're how real people think and feel and do things, and interact, and how complex those interactions become and the effects that has on the plot, on the world, on the way things are.
OSC is the master. The master of writing humanity. He better not be a Sith lord in disguise, lol, cuz if he is, I'll get seduced to the dark side like THAT! ;) I think I'm a little too obsessed with Star Wars Episode III, haha, even though I don't even think I can watch it again, because it disturbed me SO much the first time. I mean, I saw it almost a month ago, and I'm just now starting to get over it. Movies don't usually affect me consistently for that long. I'm like hyper-conscious now of where my vulnerabilities are, and concentrating on not letting them twist me to the dark side (I know The Force is a made up concept, but honestly, some aspects of it are definitely based in reality), because it's SUCH a fine line sometimes. If you've seen Episode III, you probably have a pretty good idea of what I'm talking about. If not, don't worry about it, lol, it's more of something for me to worry about internally than something that's important for everybody to know.
You know how the first step to fixing a problem is admitting that there is a problem? LOL, well, I've realized lately that, if I'm still really bad at controlling my mind, I now can at least recognize when it's doing something it shouldn't be doing, and what it's doing. I can tell when my mind is running wildly out of control (I didn't used to be able to recognize that all the time), I can tell when I'm being totally illogical, I can tell when I'm obsessing and worrying too much, I can tell when I'm overthinking or overanalyzing things...so I've got the recognition part down. Hopefully that's a step on the road to being able to STOP doing those things, lol...sometimes I can keep it down to a manageable level (like right now), and sometimes I still can't...but at least I recognize it now. And I know to shut myself off and not expose other people to me when I'm not in control of it. Which totally sucks, because usually when I get like that, the only thing I want is to talk to people and figure stuff out, but I really shouldn't when I'm like that, haha, cuz it doesn't tend to produce very good results :-P
But anyway, as depressing as THAT all sounded, lol, I'm actually in a really good mood still, which is nice, it's been a while since I was in a good mood for this long! Camp starts on Monday, and I totally can't wait, I LOVE CAMP! And Pearl's coming up to DC on the 28th, so I'm uber-excited about that too! And the new Harry Potter book comes out July 16th...LOL, I'm SO obsessed with Harry Potter right now, seriously! And July 4th is a Monday, which means THREE DAY WEEKEND! I don't know why I'm excited about that, since I like camp so much, haha, but I do love the fireworks, and it's nice to have 3 days to sleep in instead of only 2 :)