my thoughts
ok...so this whole band thing has forced me to update my livejournal... which i havent done in forever. heres wut i have to say:
i wish that people would learn that things dont always happen the way the think they should or want them to. this year, there have been MANY things that either have or havent happened that make me feel like im gettin screwed over, or that im workin so hard for nothing, or i just dont like. but u know wut...im still here. i have moved on with life. for me, the "negative" things for me r not enough for me to quit band. i understand that most if not all of the things that cause me to feel like ive been screwed over are things that no one can change. its not anyones fault that the band is getting new uniforms the year after i graduate...thats just the way things go. its not anyones fault that the band gets an awesome truck after i leave. the fact that the seniors dont get 2 out of state trips like the classes before them have isnt one persons fault. it just so happens that this year is the year that wind ensemble is goin to try to enter the contest for next year, when i wont be here to go to the contest. thats just the way things go. like i say about many things..."such is life. deal w/ it, and move on." now, im not someone who jsut lets people walk all over me or who doesnt express their views and opinions, but i am someone who knows that there r somethings that either i cant change, dont have the right to, or that i will just have to disagree with. even though the trip is basically the exact same as it was our freshmen year, im still goin on it. not just because we're playin in a contest, or because im a band officer, but because i want to. i know that it will still be fun hangin out and goin places w/ the band. it will give me time to hang out w/ the people that i dont get to see anymore b/c we're in different bands, and it will give me another oppertunity to make memories before i graduate.
now, i have no problem saying that i have complained about the things that i have mentioned, and how i feel about them. as a matter of fact, i know i have to a few people in band. but, i knew that when i complained nothing was goin to change. i wasnt doin it to be negative, i was doin it because i was frustrated at the time and i needed to vent and get it off my chest. i never did it with the intention of degrading the band or to make people feel like band sucks and all that. i would never do that. im human...i have emotions and opinions about things. but, i have never gone to a director and told them all these things that i have an opinion about. why? b/c its not their fault, theres nothing they can do, i know that its a personal things that i have to deal with, and i have. if i hadnt, do u think that i would still enjoy goin to band??
ok...the buses. again, i have no problem admitting that i was very upset and frustrated with the whole bus situation...its the truth. but heres the deal...today i talked w/ a director amd w/ a few other band members, and explained wut i thought and how i felt. i even brought up some of the things i mentioned earlier, which was the first time ive brought them up to a director. but i also listened to wut they had to say. i tried to understand wut happened and the position that they were in. if u r one of the people there, u know that i was still pretty passionate about my thoughts and feelings the whole time. but after we talked, i moved on. i understood that my personal feelings are just that...personal. its not ok for me to change everything so that im happy, especially at the cost of other people. even now, i still think that the buses could have been handled differently, but thats something that i just have to accept and move on.
as for the "clicks" or wutever, im not really even sure wut thats all about. i have heard things about it, and this is wut i have gathered. someone has comlained that there r clicks in the band. all i can say is that theyre right. there are. but, thats nothing to complain about. again...thats life. there is no way u can expect to change that. people hang out with people they like, spend time with, have things incomon, etc. everyone is in a "click" u may not be able to lable the click as something(like jocks, preps, goths, band nerds, etc), but its a group of people that hang out together=click.
so, all in all, i think that all this drama is dumb. if u have a problem with something, deal with it. just dont expect everything to be perfect, to go ur way, and to be happy all the time. look and focus on the positives, not negatives. go with the flow, be flexible, be reasonable. be mature. ive just admitted my mistakes and my immaturity...can u do the same??
P.S. I <3 B-A-N-D!!!!
i wish that people would learn that things dont always happen the way the think they should or want them to. this year, there have been MANY things that either have or havent happened that make me feel like im gettin screwed over, or that im workin so hard for nothing, or i just dont like. but u know wut...im still here. i have moved on with life. for me, the "negative" things for me r not enough for me to quit band. i understand that most if not all of the things that cause me to feel like ive been screwed over are things that no one can change. its not anyones fault that the band is getting new uniforms the year after i graduate...thats just the way things go. its not anyones fault that the band gets an awesome truck after i leave. the fact that the seniors dont get 2 out of state trips like the classes before them have isnt one persons fault. it just so happens that this year is the year that wind ensemble is goin to try to enter the contest for next year, when i wont be here to go to the contest. thats just the way things go. like i say about many things..."such is life. deal w/ it, and move on." now, im not someone who jsut lets people walk all over me or who doesnt express their views and opinions, but i am someone who knows that there r somethings that either i cant change, dont have the right to, or that i will just have to disagree with. even though the trip is basically the exact same as it was our freshmen year, im still goin on it. not just because we're playin in a contest, or because im a band officer, but because i want to. i know that it will still be fun hangin out and goin places w/ the band. it will give me time to hang out w/ the people that i dont get to see anymore b/c we're in different bands, and it will give me another oppertunity to make memories before i graduate.
now, i have no problem saying that i have complained about the things that i have mentioned, and how i feel about them. as a matter of fact, i know i have to a few people in band. but, i knew that when i complained nothing was goin to change. i wasnt doin it to be negative, i was doin it because i was frustrated at the time and i needed to vent and get it off my chest. i never did it with the intention of degrading the band or to make people feel like band sucks and all that. i would never do that. im human...i have emotions and opinions about things. but, i have never gone to a director and told them all these things that i have an opinion about. why? b/c its not their fault, theres nothing they can do, i know that its a personal things that i have to deal with, and i have. if i hadnt, do u think that i would still enjoy goin to band??
ok...the buses. again, i have no problem admitting that i was very upset and frustrated with the whole bus situation...its the truth. but heres the deal...today i talked w/ a director amd w/ a few other band members, and explained wut i thought and how i felt. i even brought up some of the things i mentioned earlier, which was the first time ive brought them up to a director. but i also listened to wut they had to say. i tried to understand wut happened and the position that they were in. if u r one of the people there, u know that i was still pretty passionate about my thoughts and feelings the whole time. but after we talked, i moved on. i understood that my personal feelings are just that...personal. its not ok for me to change everything so that im happy, especially at the cost of other people. even now, i still think that the buses could have been handled differently, but thats something that i just have to accept and move on.
as for the "clicks" or wutever, im not really even sure wut thats all about. i have heard things about it, and this is wut i have gathered. someone has comlained that there r clicks in the band. all i can say is that theyre right. there are. but, thats nothing to complain about. again...thats life. there is no way u can expect to change that. people hang out with people they like, spend time with, have things incomon, etc. everyone is in a "click" u may not be able to lable the click as something(like jocks, preps, goths, band nerds, etc), but its a group of people that hang out together=click.
so, all in all, i think that all this drama is dumb. if u have a problem with something, deal with it. just dont expect everything to be perfect, to go ur way, and to be happy all the time. look and focus on the positives, not negatives. go with the flow, be flexible, be reasonable. be mature. ive just admitted my mistakes and my immaturity...can u do the same??
P.S. I <3 B-A-N-D!!!!