Apr 15, 2008 09:24
im learning more and more how important my friends are to me...i mean ive always cared so much, but things are just...different now. everything is on a new playing field and its NOT a level playing field...everyone is truly finding out who they are...but my question is: for better or for worse?
most times when you here this question its about marriage and staying together forever for better or for worse in sickness and in health but shouldnt it be that way with your closest friends as well...with my friends i know is stay for better or for worse or in sickness and in health...but so often it feels like i give more than they do but no matter what they still take and dont even know that theyre not giving much in return
when people start to drift most simply think "we are going in seperate directions maybe we're supposed to" others think its written in the stars and what is supposed to happen will...but im not so sure how ready i am to settle for that yet...
ive always cared and often times it feels like i care too much...like i would go to the ends of the earth for people and they dont know that i care that much...and either way ill be lucky if i could get them to go down the street for me...but how do u really know how far a person will go for u? next door or your door wherever that may be...how can you truly be sure?
the truth of the matter is that you cant be sure...you have to trust and thats a big part of any friendship...trust is hard too...when you are so sure youd like to know if someone else is as well but you wont know unless they tell you and even then you have to trust them and believe in what they say to you and thats not always as simple as it may seem
just things on my mind
tori<3